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Monday, March 31, 2008 @ 11:31 PM
for you i bleed myself dry.. look at the stars look how they shine for you and all the things they do for you YELLOW by coldplay Sunday, March 30, 2008 @ 9:59 PM
i can't stand frogs.. i truly hate frogs... volunteer out today... the people?.. some so down right arrogant but some are just down to earth.. the exhibition sends out all right message.... personally thanked us for volunteering out.. I got to meet the guy who was behind all of this... he was really nice.. came up to us and The Open Your Heart Campaign was a commitment that he made... his friend real life experiences inspired him to embark on this project that comes to a stop after 2 years of research..funding..filming and advertising.. ---------------------------------------------- Open Your Heart, as the name suggests, is an initiative thought up by a group of youth volunteers who see the need to raise the awareness of HIV/AIDS and its social implications through the creative use of a film and a photography exhibition. The campaign hopes to reach out to youths to open their hearts to empathize with people living with HIV/AIDS and realise that the disease is more susceptible than we actually think it is      The 30 minutes film, titled “August 29″, is about a girl who makes a surprise return to her ex-boyfriend James. What James did not know was she had contracted AIDS and was dying. James cried when he found out, but there wasn’t anything he could do except to walk her till the end of her life. @ 12:59 AM
dan miss me!.. haha.. poor boy.. im up so early today thanks to me for sleeping so early last night and the noise my family was making as they get ready to go out for breakfast.. i couldn't be bothered to join since they the reason why i headed bed early.... once they were out i slide off the bed and head to the laptop and check out for 'The Sweet Escape'... my project.. 1st May til 4th May THE SWEET ESCAPE , 1st -3rd May....Destination..Pulau Tioman... lodging.. pinning on Berjaya Resort... let us cross our fingers... pray for the good on Tuesday guys!!! today... i wasted my Saturday doing nothing..absolutely nothing.. i should really hire someone to kick me in the head cause seriously i could have used my precious hours finishing up with my month and months due assignments like i was supposed to .. on Wednesday.. instead i had long chat with poor naz whom i accompanied to the doctor and to Banquet for dinner.. poor lad.. i wonder how's he doing.. gosh... the only man i could never really let go from my life will only be my late paternal grandfather.... no guy that i came across with will be as good as he was.. he was truly the man of my dreams... i really really call him sexy whenever i visited him.. i would always give him a kiss on the cheeks and he will always tease me about me being so skinny like my mom's mom... to think that i could still hear him from the back of my head.. to think i could really visualize him sitting in front of me and doze off as he watches his favorite Indonesian drama... sometimes i would stare at the mirror to find the resemblance of him in me.. the only thing we physically share is our loud voice and dark skin.. but is the fact that he never told me that he was dying when he really knew he was... just makes me all welled up every time.. i was his little girl.. he knew that i needed him by my side.. he knew that he could at least tell me that he's going to leave me... til this day.. i still can consider myself lost without him.. now how often can you call your grandfather sexy without getting a knock on your head.. i rarely..and i would really like to emphasize RARELY... communicate with my maternal grandfather who is still much alive and healthy.. --------------------------------------------- enough with that...... met up with dan & cher & ner & hamd... eat at simpang.. settling our 'Sweet Escape'... and still settling though..... oh God.. i have a huge major migraine.. i need to sleep it off.. Wednesday, March 26, 2008 @ 9:22 PM
 isn't rayd cute.. he's holds the title 'Fifi's Son' in the centre @ 3:09 PM
 me and my baby=) @ 1:55 PM
a day off... its meant for using the entire day to complete my months long due assignment.. and yes.. some chores of my own too... but instead i used half the day sleeping... well.. i do need sleep... really do... i think its my favorite past-time... i finally completed constructing the blog.. if you don't like it.. bite me!... im already up til my head dealing with this html codes.. i think its simple.. and just nice.. i love my song 'Linger'.. Actually The Cranberries are so 90s but they do rock.. well until their lead singer did her own solo.. but i still worship them.. you know im such a fool for you....... i already have many dates to look forward to... like somewhere in April...May..June..and lastly August... I swear I cant wait for my August to come... and hopefully im done with this course that i so painfully regret although having to know my students are the most amazing thing that happened to me.. and yes.. i will say 'toodles' to work.. and embark on a soul searching holiday=).... But to embark the journey.. im cutting down on Ben & Jerry.. cabbing to/back from work.. shopping... sakae sushi.. dvds rentals.. mobile phone usage.. and no.. never am i cutting down my dosage of caramel macchiato... Monday, March 24, 2008 @ 11:12 PM
everytime my earpiece goes missing.. i get so pissed early in the morning.. and today i had only 5 hours of sleep and after work i promised myself to be asleep by 9... and now.. im watching Seinfield on cable.. eyes glued... wide open... 27 Dresses is nice and Accepted is hilarious... their leading men... may not be hot guys.. but they are indeed.. smooth talkers... well ain't that charming =)... Sunday, March 23, 2008 @ 2:54 PM
its so frustrating...... a temporary skin for the blog... so since.. im sick of revamping it... im not blogging for the next few days.... maybe the week... Saturday, March 22, 2008 @ 3:40 AM
     this is what happens when you have sleepless night and still up at 4 am.... your wire got a lil bit loose...my body is still bloody sore... i might probably get a MC... probably Wednesday... i could probably spend the day wondering what to wear for the fashion party im attending that evening... well yes.... probably..=) but as cool & exciting as the party sounds..... im dreading to go.... i rather volunteer out the 'Open Your Heart' that Ripplevox was having that is to fight discrimination against HIV positive...... but instead... they got me into the guest list.. damn... woke up at 3pm and im still woozy... coffee doesnt help... and yes.. the weather being incredibly cooling doesnt help either... i just felt like snuggling under my quilt and drown in my bed.. im not too happy with my blogskin... wondering how on earth am i going to fix it.... sod it.. im resting this weekend... im not going to let myself worrying about little shitnitz Friday, March 21, 2008 @ 2:04 PM
i hate not looking forward for something within 2 weeks.... the chalet is over... my body aches.... our body were positioned in ways that you never thought it was ever possible to do so..... so much struggle and body contact.. i ended up with a cut.. bruised wrist.. sore thighs and sore arms..... yes.. a voice like a man... Wednesday, March 19, 2008 @ 10:00 PM
  been their fan for.. over 10 years now...they looked great when they started out and they look much fabulous 10 years after... i so worshipped Posh.. she was like.. The Ultimate... i might say hello to perth again... Sunday, March 16, 2008 @ 9:05 PM
i already have a bad start in the morning with the family.... mom & retarded dickhead brother of mine thinks i really have anger management problem... cause im a very angry lady... i just think im a confused person who doesn't know what to do.. so i vent all my negative energy towards anybody who just ticks her off in any smallest possible way... and then during my date with darling dan... it really got intense.. we really bickered... i meant really bickered... but harmless.. definitely harmless.. we went to Suntec Exhibition Hall for the Australian Education Showcase.. I was hoping that i could get some answer and finally a goal to be achieved. But as always.. hope fails me... i really never like hope... im... im... im.. im just having a huge mental block... til this day... i still am so confused... @ 11:39 AM
Rule No.1 The movie is good. There's is nothing in the movie that can be predicted so you'll always be at the edge of your seat... The sound effect just freaks you out... The storyline is brilliant. Shawn Yue is brilliant. So.. if you really want to spend your money on something good... This movie shall be it... i really hope Hollywood wont have a remake on this... they suck at the rebirth of 'The Grudge' & 'The Eye'.. so i wont be surprised when they failed remaking 'Shutter'.. Saturday, March 15, 2008 @ 7:59 PM
let bygones be bygones... but can we, human really forget about the past and not have one moment when you just want to strangle yourself or another person that caused so much pain and suffering.. im not only saying about me... but in general as well.. how long have we all lived.. how many painful memories that we sub-consciously kept in our mind... no matter how much you wish to forget someone or an incident that was painful.. you can never just get it away can you? for someone like me... i would choose to avoid such topics that links to a particular past that i chose to bury.. i would go to the extreme by throwing away any physical being that reminds me of it... i would... and i did... and i will never mention about it... and always pretend that nothing had happened... but still your mind never helped you much.... by conscious it never existed... but somewhere in your brain... in a small dark corner... there it lies... quietly...and it can pop out from its shell just when you werent expecting it.... for some others.. they would much prefer to get it over and done with...won't like matters hanging around like a thread... talk things through... get to the root of the matter... its not satisfying to be left unsolved.. you want to know why & how... and once you get to the bottom of it... you'll have this peace in your heart... so when in years to come.. you can just look back.. and laugh it off...its understandable.. no one really want any bad memory lingering in your life.. i do fall under this category as well.. ------------------------------------------------ i am no friend of hope... hope; .to believe, desire or trust .grounds for this feeling in a particular instance for everytime i hope.... hope fails me... Wednesday, March 12, 2008 @ 11:29 PM
some idiot call me up in the wee early of mornin... fuck you rand for ruining my sleep... like i not know whens my birthday... you and dan will get a hell of a nagging from me.. at work... SK is now my lovely boyfriend... Teddy & Shadow B1 and Shadow B2 are my sons.. Shadow B1 loves to talk about shopping and my Shadow B2 loves to stick out his tongue.. My Teddy loves to 'mummum' & loves his 'chut chut'.. what are dreams really.. do they have anything to tell us really? Tuesday, March 11, 2008 @ 10:38 PM
  my ex-hubby wants a samsung F700 while i....crave for LG U990.... We love love love the Korean phones=)... ex-hubby,dan i mean,, ... everytime i say out ex-hubby... i got chills running down my spine... lets set a date to get our dream phone..JULY? at work..i have 2 boys tailing me wherever i go... the staffs finds it cute since they are always waiting for me while i make milk.. go to the toilet... change other students diaper... give others their shower and even talk to parents... its like they're my shadow.. its cute for the first few days... but after a while..it get so tiring.. my supervisor says im lucky to have the boys following me around.. if they were in their early or mid twenties i wouldnt care at all... today.. something randomly happened... but it was nice.. the date got a bit weird at first.. for me.. but it was okay i think... im not sure if theres a second date but..i guess.. lets see how the future will bring us together..or not....i dont know... i hate hoping..it fails me so many times....=)=) Sunday, March 09, 2008 @ 10:55 PM
Happy International Women's Day! nothing gets in between of my caramel macchiato and me...unless its pinky... my baby is oh so darling to me=) so what should i get for myself?..a nitendo or.. a new phone.. i always eyed on that LG KU990.. koreans do know how to make sophisticated phone.. be it LG or Samsung... or should i just wait til its july... hmm..tempting.. im so over it. no question ask im happy. Saturday, March 08, 2008 @ 9:03 PM
im so tired.... got early to work for the preparations for the seminar... i hurried myself to make my classroom all clean and neat.. and made things convenient for the parents... from bevarges to the seating arrangement to the notes preparation..rush rush rush.... halfway with it.. me and vani made plans for coffee... apart from the rush, our supervisor blow up just made us all so so exhausted... parents brought their kids along.... although they were screaming and making all kinds of possible noises that will just blow your top... my eyes couldnt help but to shut... i just wished i could do nothing in my life but fill my head with books and drink coffee... Friday, March 07, 2008 @ 11:55 PM
      me and dan are couple from this day on.... and until sunday=) shall we?....we shallus, ex-married couples, had dinner and then drinks.... and we toasted to our 1 crazy wild & lovely year together.. actually 5 years.. its really is a fun ride with dan.. we missed our days being the 3... me.. jason..daniel... to this day.. im still wondering ehat makes us click since the 3 of us are just like aliens to one another but still able to come into the same path.. i always think that the korean drama 'Gong' is just pure innocent... so make me wanna cry! Monday, March 03, 2008 @ 10:39 PM
         my bitch date with my darling dan we entered ramen ten... and we exit it as soon as we settled at our seats.. reason why?.. i craved for my sakae sushi... but once we got to sakae sushi.. we dismissed it since it had a long que.. brilliant me... and so.. we went to pizza hut.. which is honestly not worth any cent that i was suppose to be paying since its dan's treat... missed dan to the core... more than 2 weeks!.. its very very the long you know!... so anyways,,, once we settled in pizza hut.. had our dinner served.. we toasted to our... what was it dan? our hook-up since we're divorced.. he has the custody of kids and yes the samsung phone.. tonight was to be our date... meaning only 2 of us.. but i bumped in into an old old friend... AYUNNI!... she was like my first best girlfriend.. back when i was young naive and stupid..hold on im still young!!! ... we like.. live next to each other.. im in block ruby and she's sapphire.. which is just adjacent to my block... but me never spoke to one another for like a long period of time which i honestly feel like in a decade... i think its time for a reunion babe!... we just love each other oh so so so so deep right darling dan?... cause we got each other's back.. so dont worry so much deary!.. im still here for you.. and in time to come... and yes.. coffee makes us both want to shit badly=) Sunday, March 02, 2008 @ 4:37 PM
 dan: will you marry me? me: yes if i was drunk plus blind the next thing you knew.. he wants a break up.. custody of the samsung phone.. and yes the kids.. cant wait for tomorrow bitch date with my darling dan=) ------------------------------------- ATTENTION TO THE DARLINGS HEADING REDANG Date have been changed... so please take note. Since im uncapable to make the arrangements.. my dad shall do so.. thus .. our dates shall be 13 june til 18 June next............... MY DARLING GIRLFRIENDS a girl night out? what about it?.. no boys.. just the lot of us.. Friday Night? 14th March? Movie..Dinner..Desserts... Girl talk.. @ 1:49 PM
                    how long have we all knew each other? how well do we know one another? how far have we gone for one another? how much have we done together? sometimes you feel its not enough and sometimes you just feel that we've been there forever.. all of us have our own dramas all of us have our own secrets but in the end.. all of us... still have the rest of us... for each other... |
