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Monday, January 28, 2008 @ 11:02 PM
I think the reason we can't do so.... cant break up i mean... cause im very indecisive and im not able to let go.. but everyone is saying that it had to be done.. its like one minute i want it... and the other minute i dont.. how indecisive can I be? i dont know if what i want to say will make sense but anyway.. i really want to break up.... honestly.. its healthier for the both of us.. you're too.. i repeat.. too occupied with business and family really... and.. i.. just dont want to be involved anymore... i can't do this.. I'm not good at it.. I think im just going to hurt you more... im too headstrong & immature for you... for me.. i need to clear my mind and set a goal in my life.. for god sake.. im like 20.. i hit the big 2.. and i need to know where i want to go.. i had it all planned out.. so i just want to get my mind focus on it... which im really bad at doing so.. but i do have friends guiding me all the time.. so they're there for me everyday..every hour.. every minute... thats one thing you cant give me.... time & presence.. and there's no point of the time out... ------------------------------------------------------------- so tired from work... but still happily drag myself meet my darling dan&cher&ner&der! went for starbucks!.. me & caramel macchiato are best friends... dan is always on the top still right lovey?... i love the drink to hell=).. i wonder how you can love it to hell i dont understand i miss our edward.. i wonder how is our imaginary friend is doing?... the last we all 'saw' him was on top of my house chandelier.... maybe i should ask him to go into a relationship with me then since he's away when you dont need him.. and when you think of him...he's there.. like duh.. he's like our make believe friend.. before hooking up with me.. he hooked up with ner.. right babe?=)=)=)... just kidding... der.. stay away from my bra-s okay! I already banned rand from my eyebrows! dan & cher.. dont get too worried about me....I think i'll be fine.. i look strong dont i?.. how far have i come since those day where i break down so easily?.. im no longer the cry baby i used to be.. even when it really dont look good for me... i think im being unfair to you guys for not showing and pretending to be brave only... i really am sorry for you guys to worry me like this.. especially my dear dan=) But thanks for your trust and faith always... ------------------------------------------------------------------- Yoshiaki... Lets end it please... please..... Sunday, January 27, 2008 @ 9:13 PM
im in need of ben&jerry ice creams!!!!! my favorite movies to cry along to.. especially '50 first date' im longing to watch it.. what a day for me today... i got to know my colleague is such a fucking bitch and betrayed me not once not twice but thrice.. at least 3 of what i know of.. stupid fucking bitch.. i cant wait to get out of the daycare centre..i feel like shooting her head off!!!!! and im breaking up with him... AND i wish people would stop telling me to calm down... my year started with a great fucking start... so please.. just let me vent my temper... im not good at controlling it.. at least with what i say.. Saturday, January 26, 2008 @ 8:04 PM
i need to lash out everything... its just pissing me off.. family are out and im hungry!! called der to meet for dinner! we're having Macdonalds=) @ 12:34 AM
met ner&cher&hamd&der for dinner at simpang... miss my darlings so much... i ranted out my frustration.. and laughed out loud.. it felt long since i laughed out loud.. i feel so relieved and stress free when im with them... made a nice surprise for dan who was working at foo's house.. i missed him lots.. still waiting for the next bitch date... played cards & screamed & laugh & cursing & swearing all night long... close to midnight me&der&hamd went off first.. i better do before mom punched me again.. i got a PIGGYBACK ride from der!... i felt like the happiest girl in the world.. i always wanted one.. i was surprised der could carry me at a long distance... i always picture being carried by either a special guy in my life or.. a close guy friend that i looked up like a brother.. but der was not like a bro.. he's my guardian angel.. always there to stand by me=) he didnt even hesitated carrying me... the feeling was nice... FIFI HEART ALL HER DARLINGS DEEP DEEP DEEP who else but you guys who supported me through thick and thin who else but you guys who chased my grey clouds away who else but you guys who gave me the confidence to stand up again who else but you guys who complete my world =)=) Tuesday, January 22, 2008 @ 9:16 PM
somehow i miss my dan and rand!... Note to rand.... no more touching my eyebrow!!!!!... seriously dont... hey bitch-es... when are we going to have our 'Singapore Next Top Model' moments? i miss taking candid pictures i cant wait to get my own polaroid camera.. dan... bitch date!... when... im missing you loads.. wait.. thats not fair to the rest... okay... to make it even... i miss my cher.. i miss my ner.. i miss my sew&mer... I miss my der&hamd!! called der a couple of days ago.. i think most of the time i call der.. is mostly when im seriously troubled over matters.. and der is the best person to go to... he always know what to expect when i call... he make your situation from serious to comical.. he's always making me laugh off my troubles away.... i can always depend on der to make me laugh... speaking of which.. i miss my dates with der&hamd... i so meeting der on the 20th Feb for the Basic theory test.. hamd aced it already.. next will be me and der.. followed by cher & dan.. dearest hamd, Im here for you if you need a listening ear! No matter what.. I got your back bro! Life is full of hardships.. You know.. when you're happy and you share it with your friends and family it multiplies!.. But.. When you're down and sad and share it with your friends.. it divides.. it ease the burdens.. i hope you can understand what im trying to say... Stay strong lil bro.. the rest and me.. we have your back.. cheer up!=) Monday, January 21, 2008 @ 8:34 PM
starting of the year and im so so so troubled with work work work work.. i just want to kill myself!... true i realised that childcare isnt for me.. im in bigger shit since i have no idea whats going to be next for me... im fucking sure not Early Chilhood.... 2008... fuck fuckity fuck... i hate this i hate this i hate this.... I just feel like screaming my head off... now.. let me sleep.. Let me sleep... i dont think i even want to wake up... Sunday, January 20, 2008 @ 4:09 PM
       darling dan skipped school yesterday.. i got fight with mom.. and randy was plain bored i guess.. all the 3 of us fooled around at dan's room.. the 2 bitches think they're Singapore Next Top Model while i just roll my eyes and snaps the camera at them... Saturday, January 19, 2008 @ 10:51 AM
       JAY CHOU CONCERT WAS FUCKING GREAT!! Okay.. once we got into the stadium... found our seats.. settled in.. patiently waiting for jay who was late for 40 minutes... anyway.. the audience were still settling in and when it was 8.30pm... when the lights dim... it got the audience all hype up.. me and daniel were screaming out lungs off.... i never felt this excited in my entire life...its like speechless.. me and dan couldnt stop screaming and we were hysterical! .. once Jay was getting ready to make his presence.... the crowd went wild.. with their light/glow sticks raised up in the air for him.. chanting Jay's chinese name.. Jie Lun! Jie Lun! Jie Lun!... His dancers were ready at their positions with the golden armour costumes... we knew what to expect with the grand opening... so once the 'Huang Jin Jia' intro started... everybody was at the edge of the seats losing their mind shrieking!... Jay came out with a grand golden armour costume... he rocked the whole freaking stadium!!!..... Dance to a few of the titles... it was fantastic and when he played the piano... it seems like the entire stadium silenced just to hear him play... later on... Nan Quan Mama group make an appearence... Lara appeared in the middle of the 'Ye De Di Qi Zhang' song and Devon rapped along.. Apart from singing along with Jay.. they even did 2 of their own title.... Lara is so pretty with her bob hair and almond shaped eyes... Yu Hao on the other hand.. he and Jay had a duel on the piano... which makes me so so excited... all eyes and ears were focused on the piano duel... i love the piece that they were playing.. if im not mistaken... it was the same piece that they played on the movie 'Secret'... It was nearing the end.. so all of Nan Quan Mama excluding Lara ,came out with jay, each took turn to sing a song for him... and soon got the entire audience to sing happy birthday song in chinese and english for him... Cai Hong was meant to be the song that closes down the curtains but.. he decided that he wanted to end the concert with a happier song instead of the normal sad ballad..Yang Guang Zhai Nan came next then.. so when he left us all with heart ache... we all chanted his name hoping for our encore.. which he did... not once not twice but 4 times... it was fun chanting out his name and screaming encore... during which he came out from the stage and dance his way among the audience right across the stage... god damn them the lucky bastards and bitches.. some fans managed to hug him... fuck!..... jealousy is a greatly sin fiza .. i was enjoying the night like i will never live a day longer...i was screaming jumping rocking my head in the air... i will pay big money to relive my one night with Jay again... an experience that i shall never be equal to.. The songs he sang.. not by order sadly! .Huang Jin Jia .Wu Shuang .Niu Zai Hen Mang .Ting Ma Ma De Hua .Bu Neng Shou Mi Mi .Zui Chang De Dian Ying .Hei Se You Mo .An Jing .Ju Hu Tai .Tui Huo .Bai Feng Se Che .Ben Cao Gang Mu .Mai Ya Tang .Ye De Di Qi Zhang .Kai Bu Liao Kai .Together (performed by Nan Quan Mama) .We Can Do It...i think thats the title(performed by Nan Quan Mama) .Ye Qu .Mi Die Xiang .Qian Li Zhi Wai .Cai Hong .Yang Guang Zhai Nan Encore .Yang Guang Zhai Nan .Fa Ru Xue .Huo Yuan Jia .Shuang Jie Gun --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Tuesday, January 15, 2008 @ 10:01 PM
..to all my favorite darlings... im glad that i was able to call in the radio station and dedicate the song to you guys.. im so so sorry hamdan... it was all in a rush and i forgotten your name.. but i was thinking of you if that helps=) kids make me wanna scream & cry for help.... but on the other hand... they do bring out the best in you... Monday, January 14, 2008 @ 10:33 PM
damn it... as much as i was prepared telling my supervisor 'I QUIT'... it didnt happened....I think i just wait til Chinese New Year is all over.. so.. yeah... fuck fuckity fuck.. derran we can both be dates for Valentine's Day... hahaha.. I think im still celebrating Valentine Day alone... nice... dan thanks for everything... thanks for being there when i needed you.. that why you're like my best best friend like.. ever.... like oh my god.. 4 years together now?.. 4 5 or 6... who gives a fuck...? thanks bbf..! Saturday, January 12, 2008 @ 11:34 PM
The whole day is just movie marathon for me... i just finish watching 'My Best Friend's Wedding'.. favorite quote Jules: He just came in for few hours to uh, to uh, FUCK ME. George: Huh! Takes a few hours love the soundtrack especially when the entire cast sang 'i say a lil prayer for you'! someday when i'm awfully low when the world is cold and i'll feel a glow just thinking of you and the way you look tonight -the way you look tonight by tony benett so.. now.. next on list is 10 Things I hate About You... 'i love you baby if its quite alright' @ 3:26 PM
    okay... i look & felt awful yesterday but mr daniel chan insisted that we cam-whore... dinner with ain was intense.... after which we rented out videos... i searched for my favorites... .My Best Friend Wedding .Notting Hill .Save The Last Dance .10 Things I Hate About You .Memoirs of A Geisha my classic movie list...under the category romance .Pretty Woman .My Best Friend Wedding .Notting Hill .You've Got Mail .Sleepless in Seattle .2 Weeks Notice .. there should be a few more.. cant recall a few.. just ended the movie Notting Hill... Julia Roberts was great as always.. i love her movies... Hugh Grant was charming... The soundtrack is lovely... i love Elvis Costello's 'She'..and Ronan Keating's 'When You Say Nothing At All'... 'I'm just a girl..standing infront of a boy.. asking him to love her' @ 12:35 PM
im as stubborn as a mule.... im like so sick i think i can faint anytime... but yet i still say no to doctor... Friday, January 11, 2008 @ 9:22 AM
woke up early although im on leave today... my eyes seems red... and my nose is blocked.. my throat got very dry and heaty... anyways.. i have to get up.. eventually.. helped dad with the house work.. and prepare my students art work for the month of January... and then get ready to meet my darling dan at foo's house.. then shall head down to changi airport to meet ain.. dinner at sakae sushi.. we usually dont meet up often only after one of us realize its been tooo long.. then.. we'll meet up.. eat.. and start talking&gossiping... that shall last for hours... im thinking of going back to school.. see the new look... Monday, January 07, 2008 @ 11:29 PM
went out with dan.. cher.. and my greatly missed der!.. Im like super tired from work and my restless weekend... yet i head down to Vivocity to just have dinner.. not only that.. we laughed our ass off.. cried til we shit.. laughed til we pee!....literally what else darling bitches?  i missed der! my dinner!... much better than Fish&Co. Cher's Der's  dan's.. chicken something bleu.. look pathetic lovely!.. the pigs..muahahahaha!.. just kidding! the ultimate bitches      loving this picture...       my tummy seems like bulging out! diet plan needed! be afraid..   soooo dramatic.. but yet its candid... eee... ghost!i really had fun with you guys tonight... its been a really really long time since i laughed this hard... Sunday, January 06, 2008 @ 9:06 PM
mom and dad are away... spending their lovely time and money.. in Jakarta.. im making sure mom get me my shades.. so dad left us with grandma.. and Kak Ana & Abang Zul invited us to a midnight movie on saturday night.... National Treasure; Book of Secrets is nice.. you don't have to watch the first movie to understand the sequel.. there's humor and the storyline gets you on the edge of your seat.. Had dinner at Sedap Corner... the food is really good... it has asian & western dishes that will make you lick the plate literally... abdul was screaming seeing all us eat and he had none.. only the wedge and the kaya toast.. we took nearly 70 snapshots of abdul and i..and sis and qistina too!  our lovelies.. abdul & qistina their mom look like doing an ad for the restaurant with her thumbs up i got super jealous when abdul feeds his choco  me & ilham cute pose  pinch the chubby cheeks!    my sis is like so mean!     my baby! peek a boo abdul & his unnie, me=) just the 2 of us baby! the big chef of sedap corner & abdul |
