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never judge me
i have my rights
to discrimninate
to hate
to love

what you see
its not half of me
but a pinch




buy my time

04thDec.confirmation day
05thDec.starlearner's gradation concert
06thDec.ben&jerry chunk fest
08thDec.hari raya haj
19thDec.x'mas with company=)=)
25thDec.x'mas whopee!
31stDec.NEW YEAR'S EVE

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their stories

Dan @ wordpress
Hamd @ blogspot
Ner @ blogspot
Sew @ wordpress
Kak Seri @ blogspot
Kak Sal @ diaryland
Rand @ blogspot
Wallace @ blogspot
Jess @ blogspot
Kak Has @ mutiply



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skin by: Jane
Sunday, August 26, 2007 @ 1:29 PM

we humans are be blinded by others kindness.. you & me.. we won't admit it.. but we all are..



my brother is and will always be an annoying egotistical retarded dickhead..


my mom says im full anger.. she's been saying that for a while now..and some idiot from my family says i should vent it on something.. so i shot back.. my anger is much worse than mum's alone.. do they really want me to turn the whole house topsy turvy? i don't think so..


i think if i take up a physical activity.. it'll be good.. fencing..kendo.. i think i rather suit up for fencing then kendo.. kendo needs me to be more.. much more physical.. than fencing..



Friday, August 24, 2007 @ 11:10 PM

i feel like a completely fool

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I miss school
i miss hyung
i miss it all

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met up with hamd.. dinner was at New York Deli.. i never seem so excited about food until just now. ..i was jumping up and down when i saw my pizza burger and my 'Queen' slice of pizza.. got der his present and i wanted more for him.. god i miss der.. i miss hyung too..


miss hyung... miss der..i really do miss him..sighs...



Thursday, August 23, 2007 @ 9:08 PM

yup.. i got the virus... oh please dont let my deary boys get it too..

my throat is killing me.. and so is my stomach and so are my eyes.. and so is my nose.. and what else.. my head.. and yes.. the heart.. its always hurting when its still beats..

i consumed so much medicine tonight.. and i still feel like throwing up! need sleep.. need sleep now...

i hate ginger tea!..hate hate hate hate hate hate hate.. but my supervisor insists... its so so so awful..

when's my sunday morning coming?....



Tuesday, August 21, 2007 @ 10:15 PM

the bug caught me.. im so in need of vitamin C.. ask me a question and i'll answer back with no relations at all with what you ask me.

.. i cant afford to get sick.. focus focus focus..

7am shift for the next 2 mornings.. great.. skipping lesson on thurs yippie..


i love my sunday morning.... longing for it!



Saturday, August 18, 2007 @ 11:50 PM

went work to finish up my admin work... but.. it took me like 45 mins to complete for the k2!!.. i still have like 3 class more!.. OH NOOOOOOOO!


later had to head down for the Teacher's day Party that my director is hosting... it was okay to me... thats all.. ntn special..


met dan and cher at foo house... made new friends.. gavin and edison too!..edison must learn how to count 1 2 3 loudly while snapping pictures for ppl! seriously!







Sunday, August 12, 2007 @ 10:43 PM

Its raining, its pouring!

Please rain tomorrow!.. means.. it will be a nice weather for my kids to have naps tomorrow..if it rains the afternoon!.. i just hope it rains the whole day... that will be nice.. and yes... the kids will be restless!

Met dearest Ain & Wirda for dinner at Swensens... had loads of gossips to exchange!... and debates on marriage/eurasian&asian men/pregnancy... i still think asian men are hot... mostly jap....



Saturday, August 11, 2007 @ 6:26 PM

National's Day can really bring the best & worst of us Singaporeans..

If you had wished to see a great view of the ceremony.. you could have done 3 things
.bid for the tickets
.book a room at the Oriental!.. We should have done that!
.get down to the merlion located along the Esplanade like from 10am!.. i came at 3pm as a matter of fact

my dad was too pissed to care if he's going to get involve in a fight when he was yelling at ppl infront of him to sit down.. at those moments.. i quickly grabbed any object bigger than the size of my face and cover it up.. gosh.. im pissed too at the ppl but my dad really created attention.. he was already wearing a very bright yellow shirt!

worked today, so so so troubled.. i have got to start to leave it all behind.. the bottle is not full yet thats why i couldnt bring myself to let it all out...

you give me every reason to smile,
you give me every reason to cry..

give it up!
give it up!
give it up!
give it up..
if you know whats good for you

cry!
cry!
cry!
cry,
it all out!



Tuesday, August 07, 2007 @ 10:25 PM

you know it have to be done
its for your own sake & mine
I promise myself i try hard to do it again
i dont want you to end up in tears..
cause i dont want you to see me in mine
i love you alot
i hope you do too



FULL DAY ON NATIONAL DAY'S EVE!!
saded.. made me miss school even more..

have to wear a kebaya for the first few hours thankfully... so maybe i just wear the top and the below.. dark blue denims.. that what im wearing to enter school.. and then i shall change into the skirt and all... before i head to school.. need to buy.. KUIHS!...

I think i just go to the block 201 there around 8.15.. take my time to find a few and then by 8.40.. head on to work by cab!.. =)

Heading to vivo with hamd!.. Misses!! been ages since met up with him!.. oh yes.. which reminds me about my camera.. has to be charged!



Monday, August 06, 2007 @ 9:39 PM

im very messed up.. mixture of emotions swimming in my heart.. i have to control it..


my heart is vulnerable
like a piece of paper
it can never stay clean

the one who make me in this situation
my heart, me
the one who hurt me
is me
the one who make me cry
is me

is all me me me me me me

trust me it will scare you,
if you know what happening in my brain!



its wont be long enough before a breakdown occurs.. sooner or later.. hopefully sooner..
i would be lying if i say im a big girl.. im a cry baby... love to cry out..


and yes.. for the record..

I do want to have babies... babies babies babies.... Marriage is not a must to go through for me..
I want to have them soon enough=)

Did it make you like 'whoa'??



Saturday, August 04, 2007 @ 9:52 PM

Wild N Out is so so so phat... if only theres such shows here..





fizah please dont think about it.. stop thinking about.. dont imagine it!!

maybe im thinking too much.. im not suppose to! It wont happen stop it!

Dont fantasize about it!!







aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!



Dont dont dont!!



Friday, August 03, 2007 @ 11:40 PM

Secret!

we shared loads between us.. waiting for the debut.. struggling to make it all perfect... all of us one mission.. one love.. one passion.. i just wished i could have been there with them when he was there!!!.. god!.. September have all the juice!.. im the only one then.. saded


TGIF!!!