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Tuesday, October 31, 2006 @ 8:38 PM
im super duper tired.. woke up and study.. til the afternoon i went back school to meet up with kak seri and find my entry proof it was in the library after all.. and we went to Mr Bean!!!.. i love that shop.. super fat free and low sugar... later me and jason became lightbulbs..haha.. we went to accompany kak seri to meet up with her fiance.. we walked around bugis... and looked around at clothes.. xbox games and dvds... a first going home by bus from bugis.. damn the journey was long.. about an hour.. twice the time taking the MRT... i kept yawning every minute.. jason prevented me from taking the nap so that i can get early sleep tonight.. how sweet.. not sure if im able to sleep by 10... im seriously doubting of dressing up Retro... hmmm.... ------------------------------------------------- kak seri.. lets go KL next year just the 4 of us.. should be fun.. jason is up for it haha.. can get karen and her guy since jason knows her.. i miss shopping in KL.. Monday, October 30, 2006 @ 8:00 PM
Oh dear God!!!!... what is wrong with my absent minded brain.. now thanks to it.. my entry proof has suddenly poof to i-dont-know where.. another reason adding up to a sleepless night.. aigoo.. how can this happen?... my ez link poof with it too.. aish.. Sunday, October 29, 2006 @ 1:48 AM
sigh.. life is good... its good when you're the official Cloud Member.. the public pays 490 bucks to get close encounter with Bi oppa for his concert.. i only pay like 313.30 bucks to get extremely close... life is sweet.... cant wait for my membership cards arrives.. going to be a bomb.. now.. my money is committed to my savings for his concert.. hell no are my parents going to fork it out for me... now i have to see until when the JYPE are saving the seats for me.. lets pray it's latest by end of december.. where is the money going to pop out in such a short time.... *takes a deep breathe*... God.. life is sweet.. and i have my Ben & Jerry tonight to celebrate alone.. Friday, October 27, 2006 @ 6:51 PM
two words... utterly disappointed... but nevertheless i should have expected it.. aigooo... why am i acting like im not used to it?...aish.. this sleeping disorder has just got to stop.. i cant knock out by 3am everynight.. its insane.. and much to my dismay..my body is irritatingly stubborn.. no matter how tired i got or force myself waking up early.. it just wants to shut down by 3 am... my day will start at 4 in the afternoon.. as i wake up by 1-2.. i wont get myself cleaned up by 4... my mom wonders if she raised a lady or a cow.. sorry omma Tuesday, October 24, 2006 @ 12:25 AM
aigoo.. today is officially Hari Raya but... i'm not quite excited by it.. something that i cant answer cause im myself dont know what the cause of it... sigh.. my eyes are swollen.. im so going to look horrible later on.. all thanks to 'Goong'.. i got ice cream.. yes i do.. i got ice cream.. what about you? haha... im a sucker for this gotcha pencil lollies.. love sucking it.. Sunday, October 22, 2006 @ 3:20 AM
watched 3 episodes of goong on youtube.. its official.. im an addict.. im an addict to all the korean melodrama.. its because of all of this.... i had high hopes of my very own fairytale.. but fairytales are all lies.. they dont really exist.. i have got to get so over this.. Friday, October 20, 2006 @ 12:44 AM
im like rotting.. my body is too used sleeping late night to the extent that im suprisingly hyper around since 11.. i need to make an appoinment with the doctor again.. this has got to stop... have i fallen in love?.. sadly no.. not really.. can i call the period of time when me and nazrul were.. nvm.. that wasnt love at all.. i swear i have no idea what that was it.. it is called stupid that is what i think it is.. i dont know what load of rubbish im talking about but i wat to drown myself in Bai Se Feng Che again and again and searching for my prom dress design... @ 12:32 AM
had my o level practical today.. that was fun.. just glad that i answered my 'unknown' correctly.. so used to copying the answer of the 'unknown' from my lab partner... i got mine correct on my own.. how ironic.. today was a special day for our dearest ner.. this babe celebrated her birthday with a couple of rounds of bowling which later had a suprise with chocolate delight.. with all the fatty chocolate being forced into her stomach and face.. she washed it down with dozens cartons or healthy soy milk..with courtesy of me..sew..cher..der..rand..& angelin.. HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TAY AH NER!!!!!!!!!! Tuesday, October 17, 2006 @ 11:03 PM
like i said.. i just cant wait to get everything to be done and over with.. then from there i shall see.. and lastly accept everything that i received... I should ask The Almighty for strength and courage to go through my life everyday so i wont be in such a mess like i was before.. and i shall ask from Him faith too... faith in Him and faith in myself.. Monday, October 16, 2006 @ 11:49 PM
got myself drowned in Bai Se Feng Che and Tui Hou... if i were to compare the lyrics betwen the both of them.. Bai Se Feng Che wins.... Bai Se Feng Che bai se de feng che / an jing de zhuan zhe The white windmills whirling silently zhen shi de gan jue / meng jing ban yao yuan The feeling of reality appears so surreal tian tian de hai shui / fu za de yan lei The beautiful sea, the intricate tears kan ni sha xiao zhe / wo zhu wo de shou Watching your silly grin, clasping my hand meng xi wang mei you jing tou / wo men zou dao zhe jiu hao I hope this dream has no end, so let's just walk till here yin wei wo bu xiang tai kuai zou wan zhe xin fu Because i don't wish for this bliss to end so soon heng ke xi mei you zhu fu / dang ai ni bing bu gu du / bu hui zai ran ni ku It is a pity that there is no blessing, I don't feel lonely at all when loving you, i won't let you cry again wo bei ni zou dao zui hou / neng bu neng bu yao hui tou I carry you till the end, can we not turn back ni jing jing de bao zhu wo / shuo ni bu xu yao cheng nuo You embraced me, telling me you don't need any promises ni shuo wo ruo yi ge ren hui bi jiao zi you You said I will have more freedom if i am by myself wo bu dong ni shuo shen me / fan zheng bu hui song shou I don't understand what you said, regardless, i won't let go of your hands wo bei ni zou dao zui hou / neng bu neng bie xiang tai duo I carry you till the end, can we not think too much hui bu hui shou qian zhe shou / wan yi dian zai dao jing tou Will we still be holding hands, reaching later to the end ni shuo bu gai zai xiang jian / zi wei le shun jian You said we shouldn't meet anymore just for this brief moment xie xie ni ran wo ting jian / yin wei wo zai deng dai yong yuan Thanks for letting me know, for i will be here waiting for eternity credits to catseyes - www.jay-chou.net love everything about it especially the last line.. Saturday, October 14, 2006 @ 11:53 PM
okay pinky was found late at night at the first floor.. thanks to a few nice guys i found her.. they were sweet.. anyways.. i assume she fell off the balcony..again.. they do have 9 lives dont they.. thank god we're on the 4th floor... it feels kind of weird that im saying this but im going to do so.. IM A GRADUATE.. there..said it.. for all my 6 years in the GREAT Pasir Ris Sec..quoating Mr poh.. i have always wanted to see myself graduate from it.. when i was in sec 1 i would peep in the hall to see my seniors graduating and enjoying their buffet and i told myself thati cant wait to get the hell out from this school.. when its comes to my turn.. i freaked out walking towards the hall.. we had slide shows of the graduating classes and im in most of the pictures of 5a2's..whatever.. and that was really emotional for all of us seated.. its like having our past flashing through our eyes.. the part that i almost cried was singing the my school song for the last time.. i got choked up about that.. ner angelin and me hold hands together and we sang the school song with pride along with the other 400 students.. Miss Cheng was caught off guard and was proud that almost every single student of hers were actually SINGING.. came to the end.. went up to the teachers and expressed our gratitude and hugged mrs tan.. going to miss her loads.. and later on.. looked forward for my dinner... had dinner at pizza hut.. most of us got sick and tired of it but we had no choice due to us muslims girls who joined.. and we did had a blast.. but i felt that the table was divided into 2 and at one point short of time.. i was stuck in the middle alone.. that was very saddening and pathetic.. to my left the chinese girls including derran and miss jiang who attended were talking among themselves.. God knows what cause conversation was in chinese.. and to my left.. daniel had the attention.. so.. i was just the spectator.. but i guess if i wont want myself to sulk about it.. take action and join in the fun.. with the girls and derran of course.. at the end of the dinner.. they head on to starbucks.. while i went looking for jason.. and do what we do all the time.. walk and talk.. he walked me home and we talked while so.. jason is a talker sometimes and i just like to listen.. instead of waving him goodbye when we reached the gate.. i invited him up although it was late.. my parents wouldnt care since they like him.. so he's in their safe list.. gave him all my pictures that i took with daniel.. i really don want any of it.. so be gone to them.. so lets get this whole shit done and over with alright?.. maybe after prom.. all will change and i will be waiting for it...... @ 4:21 PM
my worst nightmare has come true.. i cant find pinky anywhere.. not behind the toilet seats.. on her own bed.. my closet.. in my room.. or may parents.. the dining and the living room nada too.. where can she be... my heart is not at ease i lost my mood to even write about my grauation ceremony Friday, October 13, 2006 @ 3:29 PM
damn it.. im like so tempted to watch A Love To Kill again.. Wednesday, October 11, 2006 @ 5:37 PM
im sane enough.. for now.. finally got a nap and overslept.. there goes my study plan with der... i love the KBS channel that my cable has... more korean drama for me.. 2 more days til i graduate... i am going to end my days as a pasirian after 6 long grueling painful emabarrassing torturing years.. well not really.. the first 3 years was a struggle.. but comes to sec 3 (2004).. it seems brighter... there were great friends everywhere but i just got to learn to keep some things shut and choose friends wisely.. in that particularly year.. i was wrongly accused of being a backstabber.. how nice of that person.. always wished to flip at him.. my sec 4 year was really trouble free.. the year that i got closely attached to my cliques... but among that years that i spent in that freaking school... i really feel that this year is the most memorable as a student.. im not going to include the conflicts.. cause they are just small bumps.. and i have to be cool with everything that is crossing my path now.. oh God... how am i going to sit through out the whole ceromony with a smile thinking and hoping that everything will be okay?.. changes are natural.. letting go is always something good.. im going to miss der..jas..mer..cher and hamd the most.. 4 years with der & hamd 3 years with jas 2 years with cher, mer & rand. 1 year with ner,angelin and sew I will miss you loads rand... you will not be forgotten cause you're my only junior friend and i have never had anyone who is so sad about me leaving.. you're a sweet kid who loves helping out.. but keep in mind that those who dont wished to be given help dont deserve to be helped okay?.. your intentions are good but sometimes to others they prefer things as it is...maybe one day.. you will have a juniour who is in the same position as you are when you are going to graduate in 2009.. hopefully it will be one sweet girl who has interest in you... ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ @ 12:06 AM
just like a click of a finger... water started pouring out... i cant believe how fragile i am.. this is not what i want to be but look at me.. im having a meltdown... im happy.. seriously.. with friends and family.. my preparations for O seems okay but what!! why cant i sleep?.. please someone point out to me whats is the cause of it.. my mind is extremely exhausted from the crying and everything but why not my body??? WHY WHY WHY??... why does it always seems to be me having such problems.. im stopping myself from depending jason.. i cant.. im already too attached to him when my water works start... God knows what will happen to me when he can be here for me anymore.. too much dependency on him is unhealthy... so i will have to be independent... or maybe thats the cause of my meltdown.. all my little insecurities and paranoia bugs have gang up against me bit by bit.. and when they are big enough.. i got attacked... is this all a result of mood swing?... please say this only going to last tonight.. please GOD.. I beg of YOU....... no more of this.. only results of more paranoia.. thinking now if jason thinks im too troublesome now.. always so problematic.. best to be kept in a bottle and at a hidden corner.............. do you think im troublesome at all jas? Tuesday, October 10, 2006 @ 10:15 PM
im like super super tired.. had school in the morning.. and went home to change and out again to study with derran.. and we really did.. i did my maths and break fast at TM.. miss jumiah assignment is still incomplete... and im starting to wonder if i should attend that lesson tomorrow.. i cant believe how exhausted i am.. was restless when i had tuition just now.. so basically a whole day of learning.. how many more days of endless study???.. so depressing.. whats more depressing is..... Rain's coming to singapore!.. and why its depressing?.. take a look of the ticket price.. courtesy of Stephanie@RainSingapore.com... $888, $688, $488, $388, $288, $188 Date : 21 Jan 2007 Venue : Indoor Stadium Sunday, October 08, 2006 @ 11:57 PM
my fav of all.. among the 3 that was given.. still in mint condition.. cant say the same for the envelope which is kept in my closet...   @ 11:55 PM
still have this after 2 years.. bring loads of memory.. given by an old friend.. not a scratch it has .. not even a tear..  @ 11:33 PM
7 more days til im a student of pasir ris secondary.. i'm gonna leave that school for good.. all my 6 years of pain.. humiliation.. sufferring and draining are all spent there.. but yet.. there is i met different people with such beautiful soul.. a few that i will cherished and love... i dont want to get more in detail about this.. maybe on thursday.. i need to force myself to sleep.. yes FORCE cause im not even tired when i woke up so damn early from a late night sleep last night... count sheep does help...........for losers like bean.. im gonna listen to my lullaby music.. sweet music.. nights Saturday, October 07, 2006 @ 12:35 PM
i just woke up.. noon is my wake up time for my weekends now.. lovely.. and i opened up my email account.. and there it is.. stating.. Friendster Birthday Reminder For YOngJIAn.. i was like.. totally enlighten.. crap.. and then the song Tong Hua was played with max volume from a neighbour house.. and it made my day... which was like 39 minutes of it finding out his birthdate is extremely frustating when he's trying to be coy about it.. Monday, October 02, 2006 @ 5:04 PM
my 100th post...... amazing that i cant talk on about so much... my post preliminiray revision programme has started.. and i left like 23 days til my malay o level paper.. and after more than a week or so.. the ball starts rolling... a big big ball..like those from the indiana jones movie.. that is just waiting to crush every piece of my fragile bones in my body.. crap Lz... you have to be push to one side on the brain.. poly or pre u.. you tell me... |
