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Saturday, August 12, 2006 @ 4:58 PM
2 weeks of update theres nothing much to highlight apart from my performance in school..which happens to be the day when my beloved and only grandfather passed away. During the days he was admitted to the hospital.. he was down with high fever.. and for having internal bleeding..which stop on the 3rd day.. on that 3rd day.. was when he had start to 'nazak'(in a state of his final days) but no one notice it.. well.. we did but we thought he was just hallucinating stuffs.. so.. what he saw himself at.. the whole drain and the road that he thought he was placed at during the hospital stay.. it waS actually his resting place.. all of us conclude that even if he was in that state..he was actually conscious.. he knew that it was his time.. i can say that my best friend knew his time was near.. he knew well.. but refused to tell me.. knowing the secret that was kept from me.. hurts me the most.. but theres the reason behind it as well... and as strange as it sound.. when im alone for the past 5 days in his house.. i kept going his chair and sit and whisper to him at times.. and whenever i get sensitive ith my relatives i will lie on his bed next to his chair and just imagine what he'll say to me.. i keep having flashback in this house.. i stayed overnight since i dont want to leave my grandmother sleeping alone for the past 4 nights... she maybe calm and silent throughout the whole time... deep in her heart i know whats going on.. i have only seen her cried once in my entire lifetime.. and i dont wish her to do so again.. My dear beloved friend i loved you and i will always do.. you have brought joy to my life and shed away all my misery.. you have guided me through the dark path til im mature enough to do so on my own.. im glad that you have a full life.. im just sad that you wont be able to see my getting me o level this year.. or see me getting married.. or having to hold your great grandchild... i have always wanted to have you to do so.. but yet im still happy that you have gone to a happier place where you will meet those who have been waiting for you.. now whenever i have a dilemma. all i do is think of you and think what you will advise me.. i want you to stay in my heart forever and i am certain that you will always be by my side like my guardian angel.. I thank GOD and pray to him for your happiness... I thank HIM for having you as my grandad..my sexy.. my best friend.. i love you and am blessed to know such a humble servant of GOD.. your granddaughter cha a.k.a mak hitam a.k.a Nur Hafizah Bte Ishak Bin Haji Mohamed Zain |
