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Thursday, August 31, 2006 @ 3:37 PM
updates updates updates updates! hm..... was involved in a skit that only has 2 days of practise and perfection and it was really killing everybody.. literally.. almost all of us fall apart.. but we all knew that the pressure was mounting and shit do happens... i screwed up my lines in my scene 3 for the second time for the lower secondary.. they kinda suck.. cause there's no excitement.. oh god.. however.. the first time we all did it for the upper secondary.. all of us had the sense of satisfactory that cant be bought.. our hardwork and effort really paid off.. and all of us had a hell of good time.. really want to thank jas aka jay for his suppost and alan for being so forthcoming to show me my mistakes.. i admits i really wanted to blow up but i guess.. everyone's under pressure thats why the nagging and the shouting.. but all is good... now i can get my head back to my prelims now... need to bury it under maths and history for the week... Sunday, August 27, 2006 @ 5:43 PM
so friday sucked.. and yesterday was a better day...and today is..errrrrrr friday strike 3 and out you go.. haha.. evening was okay.. went to jus-t house with jas being there.. all pour out.. and then i did jus-t a big favour.. i cleaned his room.. oh god.. my hands were so itchy and i started sorting his messy desk.. he wanted to hire me for 50 bucks.. like i would say yes.. went home with jason and got home at 10.. what a day... saturday 'ner stood me up!..well no.. she didnt.. she had some other plans that left me and jas going to town without her.. for jas it was alast minute decision.. luckily he wanted to join in.. or else.. i would have rot alone at home.. so i went out and had balls of fun.... we went to the lime flea market.. and nothing much interest me.. and we went roundings at cine & heerens.. went to HMV to check on jay's pre order for the Still Fantasy.. the poster is super hot.. and yeah.. we were checking out clothes for prom.. its fun to do shopping for others..i was enjoying picking out clothes and figure out if it suits him.. we even look for his sis things.. on the way home.. he was trying to figure out what shoes to be worn for the night.. we were looking at other passengers shoes and figuring out which was more appropiate.. so it came to .. adidas or leather shoes... we'll figure out when the time comes.. and since my parents were coming home late.. i took my own sweet time.. today studied for my practical..... and now slacking... gonna start studying for my practical again soon.. so.. yeah.. aloha Sunday, August 20, 2006 @ 6:09 PM
im a malay so im not being racist here... i got to know about video clips circulated by bluetooth.. these videos shows a big group of malay girls kicking the hell out a pitiful girl.. the next was a couple of ite kids having sex.. at the staircase.. i wonder where the hell they placed their fucking brains at?.. next i was shown a long video clip about a malay girl giving some malay mat a blow job in a car.. wow.. amazing.... oh please.. you think i watched those nonsensical videos of girls who are so dumb and loose?.. why would i?.. stupid malay bitches that have no honour or dignity.. screw them in hell.. all of mats and minahs... disgust me... tomorrow will be my turn to be taking my english oral... and yes .. will be the start of my prelims too.. english.. nothing else to write about.. the week has been bland... @ 1:11 AM
well.. i had a girl night out.. only had dinner and a short walk here and there... went to pizza hut.. had the cheesy pizza which was okay to me..nothing great about it actually... got discount from danx and got free food from der.. i think.. and then we had a short walk here and there.. so nothing great... i split from them and went to popular and got myself a notebook for the social study.. and then i got bored... i was alone.. and yeah.. the stupid depressed feeling came back.. took my time to go home..so i took the bus home.... was long and depressing.. walk home alone.. missed having jay walking me home.. and i really really took my time.. taking small steps.. thankfully no one noticed except a couple of 'banglas'.. like i gave a damn.. oh god... im so pathetic.. is that why im alone or.. im just being pathetic thinking thats why im alone.. figure me out will you?.. cause i cant.. im too stupid and miserable to do so.. now.. i can choose to either go and sleep now or watch the korean homocide story or whatever.. my cough is really killing me.... Thursday, August 17, 2006 @ 9:29 PM
For the love of God.. can someone please defines the term SINGAPORE IDOL?? hello singaporeans??.. are you guys deaf?.. i think the voters are.. i mean.. what the fuck?.. to have talented singers in a unsafe group is really stupid.. i thought they were unsafe due to paul.... Singapore idol aint a popularity contest nor a 'who's the cutest' idol.. its a fucking singing competition you deaf morons! the one that deserve to be voted out was either that 'im so cute but cant sing' joakim.. and that.. 'my hair is prettier than my face' twohill.. i think this year's competition is a screw up.. singapore.. you just suck... i'll just wait to read the newpaper tomorrow.. lets see how stupid this whole competition has become due to their fans.. stupid stupid fans.. Tuesday, August 15, 2006 @ 8:11 PM
okay.. so i do have another grandfather.. i know im a black heart girl.. its my mom's dad.. but we had very minimum contact seriously.. i dont know when was the last time we talked... like what?.. when i was talking in baby language?.. i dont know.. everytime i went to visit him at my aunt's.. all i do was to give my respect to him and thats it.. we have nothing to do with each other already.. but with my late grandad.. it was different... with him its very different.. but since i no longer have him around physically.. i felt like im left with none.. okay.. enough sob sob stories of my own.. i gotten back my Mt O Lvl.. and surprisingly i got a merit for oral and c6.. i expected a fail and i thought this grade will do but NO.. some people just had to psycho me.. like my parents and all.. so what i did was to imagine what he will say to me.. there will always be 2 options.. either to take another shot or to leave it as it is and focus more on the remaing subjects.. so i was like.. alright then.. i guess taking a shot at it again wont hurt.. its only been a week since i have seen cherlyn and others but oh god.. i miss them loads.. it seems like months since i have seen them.. i think i miss them too much until i developed a fever with a temperature at 38.5... thats pretty high.. thank god that was over.. I miss my ex colleagues.. miss that lao ren.. ming fong.. min xing.. steven... and even adrian.. i recieved a photo of them all.. it was a day i long waited for.. but unfortunately.. it happened so i did not join themm gosh i miss them lots.. i told lao ren that once i got back to my own home.. i would prepare them a meal that they will never forget..maybe because they'll end up in the hospital an hour later haha... anyways.. i shall post the picture that was sent.. and the previous gathering that we had too... thats all for now.. i know i have written gibberish and nonsensical shitnitz.. thank you for bearing with me.. you will hear me someother time.. Saturday, August 12, 2006 @ 4:58 PM
2 weeks of update theres nothing much to highlight apart from my performance in school..which happens to be the day when my beloved and only grandfather passed away. During the days he was admitted to the hospital.. he was down with high fever.. and for having internal bleeding..which stop on the 3rd day.. on that 3rd day.. was when he had start to 'nazak'(in a state of his final days) but no one notice it.. well.. we did but we thought he was just hallucinating stuffs.. so.. what he saw himself at.. the whole drain and the road that he thought he was placed at during the hospital stay.. it waS actually his resting place.. all of us conclude that even if he was in that state..he was actually conscious.. he knew that it was his time.. i can say that my best friend knew his time was near.. he knew well.. but refused to tell me.. knowing the secret that was kept from me.. hurts me the most.. but theres the reason behind it as well... and as strange as it sound.. when im alone for the past 5 days in his house.. i kept going his chair and sit and whisper to him at times.. and whenever i get sensitive ith my relatives i will lie on his bed next to his chair and just imagine what he'll say to me.. i keep having flashback in this house.. i stayed overnight since i dont want to leave my grandmother sleeping alone for the past 4 nights... she maybe calm and silent throughout the whole time... deep in her heart i know whats going on.. i have only seen her cried once in my entire lifetime.. and i dont wish her to do so again.. My dear beloved friend i loved you and i will always do.. you have brought joy to my life and shed away all my misery.. you have guided me through the dark path til im mature enough to do so on my own.. im glad that you have a full life.. im just sad that you wont be able to see my getting me o level this year.. or see me getting married.. or having to hold your great grandchild... i have always wanted to have you to do so.. but yet im still happy that you have gone to a happier place where you will meet those who have been waiting for you.. now whenever i have a dilemma. all i do is think of you and think what you will advise me.. i want you to stay in my heart forever and i am certain that you will always be by my side like my guardian angel.. I thank GOD and pray to him for your happiness... I thank HIM for having you as my grandad..my sexy.. my best friend.. i love you and am blessed to know such a humble servant of GOD.. your granddaughter cha a.k.a mak hitam a.k.a Nur Hafizah Bte Ishak Bin Haji Mohamed Zain Sunday, August 06, 2006 @ 6:20 PM
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