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Friday, July 28, 2006 @ 7:51 PM
finally friday is here... i just got back from school cause my rehearsal ended late like around 7.. i reallly had balls of fun!!!!!!!!!!! i am the one who begs.. pledge... shout GOAL!!!!!!!...sing 'home'... and others... wont tell you how it is all like but its gonna be fun! Tuesday, July 25, 2006 @ 5:58 PM
okay.. i got my 'a love to kill' dvd that i bought from yaoo auction... i was really excited... so when i open it i was so damn happy!!!! But Theres always a but and i hate 'but's!!!!!!! It is not in mint condition should have expected it... and im watching itas we speak... crystal clear but..i hate the fucking subtitle cause its so not what i remembered and the sentence is so out of order.. and Kang Bok Gu is not fujiu... who is this idiot who writes out the subtitle!!!!! Sunday, July 23, 2006 @ 10:15 PM
okay....... i have a prom date.. and im turning lesbian.... hahahaha.. what a wacko bitch... winner wants to be my date!!... we shall arrive in a london cab and sashay in on the red carpet.... i want to have a guy asking me out on a date.. that would be romantic.. but having my girlfriends asking me out.. that would be super fun..we will partaay all night long.. @ 9:15 PM
like i give a fucking care that he's my brother.. that stupid prickhead is like a devil in disguise... he can just rot and i wont care seriously.. all he does is to irritate people.. thats his purpose in life.. and maybe mine is just bitching and nagging is it?.. i dont give a fucking care! i just want to live my own life and not have him bother me.. like i would even care if you are fucking famous.. like you would!.. i dont even one a penny out of you! i think if you live in a home without me.. you'll be living in a condition worse than a wild boar does you filthy boy! I'm not even one bit scared of you!.. punch me kick me.. dont think i have no rights calling the fucking cops! im in such a fucked up mood... im having my rehearsal tomorrow for the performance.. that blondie better do as i say.. he owes me!... should i practise the dance now? okay.. im starting to dream... if i were to ask A out for a movie.. will it be appropiate?... at the same time i do think of B.. I swear to God that theres only 2 i fancy.. but what if A says no.. he is so out of my league and..dear God have resemblance to that freaking nazrul!! older yes.. cuter yes and geeky-ness?.. cuter!.. not really geeky!.. oh god!!.. he doesnt seem so malay-ish which also attracts me.. and he is.. i dont know.. im going to slap my self out of this!.. oh yes and B.. i think he's just somone for me to fantasise about..... and note to my friends.. its not jason!!!!! for the last and million-th time!!.. he is only HYUNG to me.. ming bai ma?.. get the whole picture?.. or do i have to paint one?.. @ 12:34 AM
okay i am so done with the tresure hunt.. that faz was lucky to escape from it.. so she had aqmar to face the heat and torture of the f'cking event which i so hate.. no more for me.. seriously.. i sweat like i never sweat in my entire life before.. all of dan's fault... ... my hair was still wet after the whole f'cked up hunt was over.. walked the entire jalan besar and balestier area in circles and i was super close to quitting.. thanks to the hot sun and weak stamina.. won nothing.. made me more pissed.. spent 5 hours running and sweating and getting sticky and looking so disastrous.. i was wishing for a big clear blue ocean to drown in.... after that all energy-wasted event.. i was sane enough to go out just after a shower.. met up with jason to vent my complains everything on him as always...i feel so bad but he's always there for me to do so...talk talk talk vent vent vent.. we went to justin house to celebrate his 17th birthday.. it was fun... laughed like crazy bitch! finally i got myself a new jacket.. but not really satisfied.. stupid me...and then i bought A Love To Kill DVD online via yahoo auction.. no more a yahoo auction-virgin already! coming in on tuesday.. now im looking forward to my national day performance which is on 3 & 8 aug.. cant believe im in a musical and dancing as a f'cking beggar..whatever.. i better have lines blondie!! and lastly.. cant wait for my IPS dinner.. still unsure how to celebrate it... gosh.. im in trouble! Monday, July 17, 2006 @ 9:57 PM
im sick..... i want a white mini jacket and i seen dozens and dozens on yahoo auction but.. mostly are slightly smaller than me by seeing the measurements that was give.... now i just wanna eat... a big big big sandwhich!...... I HATE MALAY LANGUAGE Wednesday, July 12, 2006 @ 9:51 PM
when i want things.. i really want it.. i want that song!!!!!!!... that goo reum song sang by rain!!... i desperately want it!.. its not that i dont have it.. i do but it is not in mp3 format but apx.. like what the hell?.. how in the world am i going to change it to?.. fuck it.. dont tell me i have to buy a 26 bucks cd just for one song?.. she's starting her crying nights again.. thats all fiza is good at.. cry and cry to the point where her heart has become hollow and all that is left are dust.. her mind is empty and her body went numb.. her eyes fixicated on the window.. she's as good as a vegetable what does she wants..what does she needs.. what is really up with her.. answer that.. why is she this..can once the world be fair to her and grant her what she wishes for..i guess theres those time where she wishes that she would cry herself to sleep.. and not to open her eyes my chest pain are coming back... searching for painkillers now...arghh!! @ 6:54 PM
aish... i'm too into this drama series.. mingu oppa just died and i cried my eyes out as if he was my hyung but seriously....................................................................... today i have good news and bad new...so which will go first?.. bad news.. for not doing that witch's assignment... in return.. im going to get a big fat zero for my common test this term and im in real deep shit!.. what am i going to do?.. how am i going to escape now?.. *knocks head on computer* okay.. good news... i have prom night!.. wohooo!!!... however.. theres always a however.. it will take place at a sports club.. and the theme is.. RETRO!!!!.. disappointing.. still i have waited not 5 but 6 years for that night!!.. if anyone was to spoil my mood of looking forward to it... they're dead!! get it?aish... what miss jiang said to us earlier during ace period moves me.. i really want to do my best for my last year in school.. i wont have any more retakes or what so ever.. i wont end up in ite since that is now what i want to pass by while reaching my dreams.. i have 4 more months.. i do whatever it takes to achieve my dreams.. Tuesday, July 11, 2006 @ 9:00 PM
im tired and pissed! what the hell!!.. i know about the taxi fare is increased but i thought by somewhere less than a dollar but its only 10 cents.. that was okay to me.. but what was fuc'ing pissed about this new increase was the fuc'ing peak rate.. from a dollar it increase to 2!!.. what the hell!!.. im so not going take taxis anymore at peak period.. they are so going to bleed me dry!!.. why cant the fuc'ing rental cost just drop?.. if it drop... surely there will be more taxis around so people in the town area wont be complaining of lack of taxis in singapore!!.. so freaking freaking freaking pissed!!! wanna watch my 'a love to kill'.. goodbyes losers!.. *MUACKS* Monday, July 10, 2006 @ 10:42 PM
i came to the part of 'a love to kill' which is depressing.. why cant bokgu make up his ming?.. why must he be damn unpredictable.. i feel like slapping his face so that he can wake up.. he maybe a violent avengeful bugger but deep down.. he's just a poor soul crying his heart out for eun suk.. i want someone like bokgu!!..*slapping myself* had my o level malay oral and it really wreeks.. i couldnt believe that i blew it seriously.. since i so sure of taking the paper again.. i just got to bury myself with hardwork do get a c5 for malay!.. after that.. i DONT WANT to do anything malay languge!!! Saturday, July 08, 2006 @ 10:29 PM
came back an hour ago from a study group with alan and jt... we did our emaths today at a small cafe located in bedok.. for around 2 and a half hours.. after that we decided to have our dinner.. from the cafe we walked to sempang bedok.. we walked and we sang like opera people which was funny and crazy.. sang tong hua and shi jie mo ri.. talked about our class.. had a good time.. nothing else to write.. im damn tired.. night losers.. muacks! Friday, July 07, 2006 @ 4:41 PM
i hate hot weather.. gives me migraine.. every time the day get this fucking hot.. i just want to bang my head against the wall!!! if theres something that i dont wish to do.. i wont do.. but this time im being forced to do something that i dont wish too.. i dont want to sacrifise myself just because a bugger cant keep his back straight.. just because 1/5 of the apple is rotten doesnt mean that you have to throw the apple away.. what a waste.. im not happy and even if i did it.. its out of sincerity.. im sorry done with another episode of 'a love to kill'... now i need to find my a maths homework... i hate tuition.. i have no idea if it helps seriously.. my head feels like its gonna explode!!!!!!!!! Thursday, July 06, 2006 @ 6:00 PM
stupid daanx.. read his bloody nick on msn and it was.. 'difficult to tame or control a loud black bitch'.. whatever.. you are as bitchy as me bitch.. we had so much fun laughing our butts off shouting at one another.. i swear to God if there was a noise pollution police.. both of us will be in jail as i speak.. 'a love to kill'... it gets better and better.. heart was melted and tears rolled and my body was in the air zillion of times.. more suspense than full house.. but still i prefer full house.. i picked out a few words by watching full house.. all that 'aish'.. 'hyung' and 'yo bo se yo'..... and that word..'aish'..has got cher's blood boiling.. i keep saying that every 20 minutes... haha.. and now.. everytime i say it in her presence i close my mouth fearing she would slap it!.. my love for my class keeps growing and growing and even some find some irritating.. i love them to bits.. how unfortunate that a person has to leave us.. this is what i realised while i was walking back home.. even a pinch of happiness is able to make life bearable.. Wednesday, July 05, 2006 @ 11:18 PM
aish!!.. this is damn irritating.. for the episode 5 of a love to kill.. i cant upload like half of them and i really really pissed.. damn it.. at least i get to watch the last part of that episode.. aish!!!... buying the dvd la.. arh!!! @ 9:28 PM
im so tired!!...thankfully i took a nap.. whats the highlight for today?... our class had our phototaking session which was fun.. balls! this time round im standing instead of sitting.. and when it came to the informl picture.. almost all of us put on our class t shirt.. it was my idea to have them wearing it over their uniform.. not sure if they were pleased by it but we sure had balls of fun posing.. how i wished we could have done severals poses.. nothing much to blog about anyway.. all i know.. on the way home with the guys.. i had to shout im proud of my breast.. stupid daanx.. he's so dead.. so what if its small.. im proud of it just the way it was.. and yeah.. on the way to the mrt.. i was being super loud.. and i realy mean super loud!... im this loud big black butt bitch..so deal with it?.. hmmhhmm.. Tuesday, July 04, 2006 @ 11:28 PM
what am i seriously?.. just a unique or a weird?.. seriously what is a malay girl doing.. watching nothing but chinese movie and korean melodrama.. and listening to jay chou.. jolin.. rain.. j-l..??? is this weird and crazy or just unique and original? tell me please... @ 6:54 PM
aish!.. i am really lazy to do that "so-what" witch's homework... i have 4 more of it.. im burning midnight oil every night and sleeping during that albert neo lesson.. aish.. why cant i just sleep and not wake up? the' a love to kill' drama is getting much more exciting for me.. it even got me jumping here and there like a dark brown kangaroo!... i want my prince charming to be like rain.. aish!! slap me! he's character is so cool but yet so scary.. and unpredictable.. but watching at you tube is such a pain at times... many reasons for example the damn subtitle.. the repeated scenes and the blur-ness.. but still the dvd is a real ex.. cost more than my 'full house'.. i have just either to endure it or save money to buy the dvd which is 50!!.. I think i would buy it.. all to myself.. today i had my nafa test.. only did the 2.4 km.. and boy was it easy for me to cheat!... i dont think i was lying to myself.. i know i cant run.. and i need to pass this bloody run so that i wont have to do it again and again and again... i run like an elephant mind you.. since my arse its irritatingly big!.. haiz. thank god this will be my final year in this school.. I want to migrate to korea.. i can be so indecisive!... my passion lies in africa but somehow my hearts wants to be in korea.. their leader kim what his name better not start a war!!.. i'll curse him if he does.. my dreams of having a korean boyfriend will be shattered!...(--)' going off losers.. miss me! Monday, July 03, 2006 @ 5:29 PM
aish.. im more stabled than i was before.. i think its the stinking melodramas that i've been watching.. so.. i got myself straighten and all ready to go..God knows where im going haha.. i spoke to yong jian on the phone last night until it was 5.40+ am.. i felt damn bad having him to stay up to hear me whine.. and later on i was on the phone with daanx for like half an hour.. he was so happy to take a picture with jamie yeo.. whatever bitch!...haha!... my mom woke me up around 8 just to nag at me and to iron her clothes for work.. gosh she bites.. big time.. so damn annoying.. and i went back to sleep again.. and i keep receiving smses not 3 not 5 but 9 and i was so frust!!.. damn these ppl.. leave me alone!! earlier in the afternoon i met up with cher to exchange the pants which they bought for me, to a slightly bigger size.. my stupid jacked ass!!!! hate it so much!!! and when we got to the shop, there isn't any bigger size.. aish!... i wanted that pants.. so in the end we chose a different one.. and honestly speaking..the ones that me and cher chose.. i couldn't even ziip it up.. the shop keeper was like saying i am actually skinny but its my ass that is fat!.. damn it!.. cher suggested i should get a skirt which i end up with.. and found the only denim skirt that i've tried on thru out my teenage life that was damn comfortable.. and the length was just perfect! So happy that i finally have a denim skirt in my wardrobe.. hahaha.. aish.. i got to complete that witch's english homework that was given a month ago.. i hate doing homework!.. and now talking about it makes me sick to my stomach.. seriously.. i am now.. got to go losers.. bye! miss me! @ 3:48 AM
save me really im slipping away from sanity a total ludracris my behaviour has been should put a stop to this where are you then? will you save me? or shall i save myself? is it even possible? dear God i pray to you let this all be done and over with never will i have this stupid mentality ever again or so i will kill myelf @ 1:53 AM
where are you?.. my sanity?.. im going nuts!.. all i think about is being lonely.. someone please knock some sense into me!... am i that horrible to the point that i have no one waiting for me?.. or being desired for?.. seriously.. aish.. where has my sanity gone to? i like him...i think..but.. i dont want to like him.. haha.. im nuts.. i dont want to like the other person.. i want the other person to like me.. slap me..someone slap me! aish... now im watching 'a love to kill' starring rain too.. i think i crazy rain.. the story so far confuses me a bit.. but its sad.. but i think im more attracted to full house than this.. but in this drama i see a different side of rain.. he's more of a violent guy which really scared me!.. and i love his scruffy face and that hair.. and the lollipop which is constantly in his mouth... nice appearence.. bad boy image.. orh.. my heart is melting as we speak.. *slapping face* oh no.. im forgetting about my jay chou! he will always be my number one.. whatever!!!!! jay[jason] is my *hyung so i cant have any feelings for him.. i'll make that clear.. beside he's younger than me so i just cant.. can everyone get the message? *hyung is brother in korean emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo im really have gone out of my mind!.. for the past week or so.. i really have been a big cry baby crying for her saviour! i think my wailing has scared ppl away.. they might see me as a mad girl! come back to me please oh sanity.. i need you right here right now! but seriously.. i know i seem a little off from my normal self.. i do sense that im not being wanted.. i see my friends being paired off with great guys or gals and i keep thinking.. where's my fairy tale?... when will it be my turn.. i wanna experience that magical feeling with someone who appreciates me.. and treats me with respect and dote me like a princess... to be there for me when i need someone the most.. that someone who refuses to watch a chick flick but will do it just for me.. who will help to wipe my tears dry.. the one who is not ashamed to hug me in public... carry me around when im tired..one who will buy me flowers for no occasion at all!!.. when will it be my turn.. not now i guess... even if i keep asking for it.. its not that my prince going to drop down from the sky?.. so maybe.. why not i just shut my mouth and just wait for that day to come?.. patiently!.. someday the time will come for me.. now is not the time... think of me and miss me....night night losers...*MUACKS* |
