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Friday, June 30, 2006 @ 12:48 AM
somebody save me?... sweep me off from my feet please? be the hero that rescue me from insanity... let me live my hapily ever after... @ 12:20 AM
everyone makes me happy.. my friends cher mer daanx jas and all.. my family.. sometimes and not that devil in disguise brother of mine.. he realy does make my life a living hell.. well lets just say generally.. everyone makes me happy.. but I dont do so.. Im not sure how or what makes me say that.. but gosh.. im just so emotional.. and i think i will have a difficult time accepting the fact that i am a cry baby.. i should when i cry and cry all the time.. what is it? seriously do i think im lonely.. yeah i do.. but is it even necessary?.. i dont think so right?.. but why am i so depress about this.. im not paranoid that im all ugly and all.. thank god.. but why? im nuts.. aish.. i think i have seen to many melodramas... but seriously.. i think i am lonely.. i have friends who have guys waiting for them endlesly.. but what about me?.. aish.. im always thinking of someone but has ever any guy is thinking of me...going emo now..... went to see dave and andrew in the afternoon... they changed.. everyone changed.. but me!... *knocking self on computer screen* i miss my working time.... i am so in an emotional state that i dont think my brain is functioning properly so please excuse my lame-ness Tuesday, June 27, 2006 @ 10:40 PM
oh no.. im sick!.. im coughing and coughing like an old woman... today.. the lesson's suck.. case i spent 3 periods getting my arse numb sitting at the hall listening to boring lectures by dm and the principal.. and followed by 3 round of 400m run... and after recess my english lesson was conducted along the corridor.. and the highlight of that stupid lesson is when that witch asked justin how to spell penis.. she was like "its penis.. how do you spell it..." and after school i had grooming lessons.. which was really interesting.. learn how to make me look more....eeheem.. beautiful.. haha.. whatever.. my coach was really well dressed.. not sure if he's metrosexual.. so.. i have a oval - round face.. my bday.. got a couple of g string thanks to faz and jan.. thats all for today.. the pressie i mean.. and the brownie cake.. hamdan made that for me.. so sweet.. cher and all owe me they said.. so does randolph.. and i got sabotage.. i was forced to eat 17 cookies decorated on top of the cake.. and i stuffed all in.. but worse was when all the stupid girls chased me around the toilet with their water bottled.. i was drenched.. everywhere!.. damn then.. thankfully i am not catching a cold.. later in the evening had dinner... with jas and daanx!!... i miss that loads.. daanx bought me a tiny cake.. and its chocolate!.. i think im gaining pounds soon.. thankfully for the 2.4km run.. daanx has the pics.. i need to turn in soon.. nights losers.. I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!... daanx,jas,cher,mer,der,hdan,ner,sew,jan,faz Monday, June 26, 2006 @ 7:57 PM
.last day .hero for a moment .first prize .countdown until i turn legal .have a crush on you yesterday was the last day of my holiday and i spend it with my family and dad's company as it was Infenium Family day.. another exciting day at sentosa.. balls of fun.. the evening part was memorable.. haha.. must i really tell the whole world?.. the team that we were assigned to was to have 3 volunteers for an act.. it was a pirate theme so.. there were character peter png [peter pan].. captain cook [captain hook] and tickleme [tinkerbell]..the act is that tickleme got kidnapped and all by whoelse?.. and pter png come and rescue me ..so my dad was the captain cook and i wanted to be the maiden in distress since my hero is someone i fancied for a day.. haha.. yeah yeah whatever... so it was like.. dad carried me up to the stage and i had all eyes on me since the camera fixated on my slipping pants.. gosh..and i was tied on a chair and i had to act distress.. so my peter png [sadiqque.. i think..] came and had a sword fight with my dad and in the end came and rescue me... he tried carrying me on the chair .. i guess i was too heavy.. aish.. it felt nice to have a hero for a moment.. and yes.. i do like to be in limelight.. have any problems with that? the last event for that night was the lucky draw prize... i heard that the 3rd and 2nd prize was the XBOX 360.. i went oh my god!.. i so do want that.. but.. in the end.. we won the first prize... its a sony tv.. i think its a plasma lcd.. dad says it worth more than the freaking xbox 360.. well like the malay always says it.. its 'rezeki'.. thank god almighty for it.. im turning legal tomorrow.. well.. its in 4 hours soon... i dont feel like going to school... the girlfriends and boyfriends have things planned out for me already.. but.. i feel so awkard.. cause honestly when i think back.. i never had my birthdays being celebrated with friends.. this is the first time i think.. i cant recalled how i celebrated it when i was in my early teen.. but anyway.. im just blessed with such friends.. i have a small incy wincy crush.. for quite a while now.. sshhhh.. its a secret between us.. Saturday, June 24, 2006 @ 2:40 AM
completed round 2 of full house.. lets see how many times i can watch this mini dram and cry my eyes out...... well.. i feel like having another go with the 16 hours mini drama.. insane am i not?.. i just feel like.. gosh.. im not satisfied.. i need to knock out soon.. so i can start to do my homework early.. maybe meet up a friend and do it at mc cafe.. have to think about it tomorrow.. mom's not working i heard.. how am i gonna go through her?... maybe a mouthful of nagging and yelling first.. then after that a waste of my precious time lecturing me how important my O's are to me.. night night... @ 12:55 AM
 doesnt this picture remind you of temptation island?... miss that show... anyways.. daanx bought the 4 of us this picture that comes with a keychain.. i love this picture so much.. how i wish there were more.. then it will really look like temptation island.. whatever .. dont i look pretty in it?  Friday, June 23, 2006 @ 11:56 PM
aish.. im damn shagged this week.. its the most chaotic week for the holiday month i had so far.. through out the 5 days.. i was rarely home except wednesday.. wednesday night was planning an outing to sentosa with jan..faz and daanx.. and yeah i continued my cd3 of full house.. that ended around 3.. called an old friend and knocked out by 4 plus.. thank God that daanx called.. i could have been late and dead by now.. and so our fun began when we reached sentosa.. we got ourselves lost.. its sentosa for god's sake how stupid can we get?...and in the end.. we're chilling at palawan beach.. and they forced me in the water.. and even make me look stupid infront of 3 gorgeous hunks.. there were a few photographers taking our pictures and i felt like a swimsuit model.. as if.. and we had to purchase them later on.. will show you guys my favorite of all.. reminds me of temptation island.. i had balls of fun.. i even tanned myself a little.. cher.. sorry that both of us left you out.. if this outing happen to upset you.. im sorry darling.... in the future all of us will go together okay?.. earlier this night i attended my school's concert..it was bland at first but after the interval.. it got really cool.. then i asked for jas to send me home.. was super happy cause its fun for me to have him around... i love him like a big brother.. how ironic when its me who's older.. jess was with me and the rest too.. been a while since i've seen her.. so glad that everything its back to where it was.. well.. almost.. just a weekened away from school..*crying hysterically*.. this whole month gone by like an instant and i dread coming back to school... aish... have to pull up the socks now.. and higher this time.. cause i will be in deep shit if i dont do so.. night night losers! Wednesday, June 21, 2006 @ 2:05 PM
im feeling so so so so so so so so so so so so so so .. pathetic.. no i dont want to be comforted.. i just wish to be alone.. i just want to sit down and cry all that is in me... Tuesday, June 20, 2006 @ 8:38 PM
1.shagged 2.crushed 3.sick 4.angry spent the entire afternoon walking here and there with daanx.. took dozens of pictures everywhere we went.. balls of fun... my legs have turn into jelly... can barely walk right.. so so so sleepy and tired... from the esplanade we walked to bugis.. from there we turn back and pass esplanade to head to clarke quay.. we thought of getting lost in the city.. wouldnt it be great? hahaz.. later on we went back to esplanade and then straight to suntec city.. i could have died walking around like a headless chicken!!.. then we went to new urban male.. nice shop.. and i had a big crush on the sales guy.. i wished i know his name... nice body..i want to go back there with daanx when he claims he mebership card.. received my bday present today.. daanx bought for me a sleeveless top.. its totally expensive.. it cost him 60 bucks!.. i felt so bad.. .. but daanx insisted that he was okay with it... turn out to be a bday present.. miss that sales guy!!.. i want to claim all my photos from daanx!! my entire body is sick.. i had gastric in the afternoon and when i ate.. i felt puking it all out.. when i came back it was the same.. and later i think i want to just sleep.. no late night for me for tonight.. my head is spinning around.. i wish my parents will just stop lecturing me... the more they do.. the more feuled up i'll be.. i wished i had applied for ITE.. but i guess wherever i go ..the nagging won't stop.. whatever i do wont be good enough.. like i care.... get off my back.. and just shut up! Monday, June 19, 2006 @ 5:03 PM
i want to learn korean and chinese.. i dont know whats up with me but i just dont like malay... my parents will be nagging at me.. aish... lately im starting to think again.. at least not getting paranoid.. theres nothing to get paranoid over about.. i want my friends.. and i want to have a fairy tale life.. i watch to many melodrama.. aish... knocking my head on the screen... @ 6:52 AM
ok.. done with 2 cds.. 8 hours of it.. 8 more hours to go.. eyes hurt... called daanx as soon the time gets to 5.35... missed my mesu loads... now i need sleep!!..badly!! Nights!!..and its 0651hrs now!!... @ 2:39 AM
in the midst of watching Full House.. done with CD1.. now going to watch the 2nd CD.. 2out 4.. gonna end late.. estimately around 6.. i cant really go watching the entire show.. its 16 hours altogether.. not realy my house.. if not i could.. a pity that cher is down with a fever or else i would be excited to get ready to see daanx back from China... unfortunately shit happens.. so i think i should just call him around 5 plus?.. later losers... cant wait for the gom se ma ri part... Sunday, June 18, 2006 @ 7:45 PM
finally.. got my hands on the Full House DVD... somehow.. still i feel guilty cause.. never mind.. now at my grandparents house.. going to sleepover here.. and then do some bonding with cousins.. and yesh.. need to return a dictionary to a supposed-to-be-forgotten friend.. later i guess... miss having the whole entire family here.. all of us are loud.. i love that thing about us.. i got to go now.. i'll update more later.. @ 12:41 PM
1 more night til i see daanx 2 more ear piercing for me 3 weeks since i last seen jason 4 months til the big O's 5 months more til i end secondary sch 6 times i've quarelled with bro this week 7 days more to Sentosa! 8 was the number of days searching for a perfect blog skin 9 more days til im legal! 10 fingernails that needed to be trim!! okay... i need to run errands before my mom starts her painful nagging on me.. how is the song?.. can it be heard?.. its called Um Myeung.. sang by Why.. weird name for a singer.. and in english the song is Fate.... love this song.. makes me want to cry.. 1 more day til daanx is back!.. made plans for my birthday night.. to have a dinner with jason and daanx.. i really want that!.. been ages since the 3 of us are together.. alright then losers.. got to go.. Friday, June 16, 2006 @ 10:22 PM
just got back from my holidays.. well not reallly just.. about 24 hours ago?.. The trip if you ask me.. was great...i met up some friends there.. did kayakking and a lil bit of swimming and i did parasailing..that was the highlight of my stay..and yeah some snobbish Malaysian actors were there.. promoting the resort.. and i went hysterical over one of the actors..who is a chinese.. too bad all of them are just damn arrogant..=) .. i miss that place..damn.. i've became so attached to that beach resort now.. it hurts me to part it again... i'll show the pixs later.. going to get it from my cousin naddie i've not slept for the past 30 hours??.. well.. since i left the hotel yesterday.. i've not slept.. still amazed that im not that shagged.... since this time was travelling in a bus... its clearly impossible to shut my eyes unless with the help of my cough syrum.. another reason was..FULL HOUSE!!!..oh God.. i've became so addicted or obsessive with this.. from then on.. i got crazy over Bi.. he is damn hot.. so since i got back.. i watched the remaining episodes of full house..which is 9 of them.. and has 9 hrs of crying and hating and laughing.... started watching around 1 in the morning... and finally i ended it all by 12 hours later... alot of distraction when the family got up... haiz.. i wish i was a korean.................... well.. im certain that i'm gonna take up korean language in poly.. If God's will it.. where is my mesu partner?.... miss him loads and.. my nights are getting lonely and boring without him.. wonder if he likes my new skin... i bet he's in the room with andrew and jeng jeng.. probably scaring them off....hahaha... i miss bitching with him... so many things that i want to share with him.. eversince i got back.. i've been down lately... haiz.. im a mess right now.. i need jason.. Friday, June 09, 2006 @ 11:06 AM
im still pissed.. i know i know..... whatever la!!!!!..so fucking upset.. @ 10:38 AM
so fucking pissed.. so fucking pissed... AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!! I feel like i can kick that fucker's ball or punch the hell out of his face... and no its not my brother this time... Thursday, June 08, 2006 @ 9:19 PM
okies.. im fucking 18 soon and still getting punished from my folks.. damn man.. stupid stupid stupid.. makes me so fucking mad... and my head still hurts after getting hit in the head.. took my internet and then my phone.. and then got me grounded.. all of this blamed on my fucking retard brother.. stupid dickhead.. how i wanted to blow his fucking head with an elephant gun. and then stab him dozens of times.. i'll be satisfied.. scary huh? ..muahahahahahah... whatever... so damn fucking pissed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!... then dad made this stupid timetable for me and my siblings.. cause none of us know how to take turns using the damn computer.. like i can live with that.. i so wanna get a pda or a laptop.. i think a laptop better.. get an apple one.. ARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! i went out despite him saying no going out.. like i care.... went out with dan.. went his house.. gosh i missed his dog.. mel mel... totally cute.. i got in and he was like chasing him.. then dan placed him in a bucket.. and i sat on the floor.. mel mel just trying hard to get out.. called her and she rushed sitting on me.. made sure her nose touching me.. she just sit there putting her head on my knee.. so cute!!!!!!!!!!!! i want a dog!!!.. a chihuaha.. correct spelling ?..anyways.. its my sis turns.. so anyway.. talk more tomorrow Tuesday, June 06, 2006 @ 9:43 PM
alright.. learnt a few lessons today... lesson 1 gotta study real hard...actually should have learn that long ago!.....so it would be possible for me to customise a mini cooper which i want to get in the future.. either that just a convertible beetle.. vintage baby lesson 2 never go out with mom for shopping.. now its a big no no! lesson 3 never listen to parents when they said they would get you things.. it not likely to be true either that.. it will happen..but eventually... well i did to get a pair of shorts and a nice blouse.. but.. no mp3..yet..daddy says... @ 1:55 PM
okies... im done renovating my blog.. not sure if turns out good.. me and danl kept finding the right one.. but.. it seems we're picky.. there were many that were good.. but i want something abstract... and unique.. not sure if this is abstract.. but at least its nice.. okay... past week.. went to east cost.. for fun and got myself burnt.. me and dan just walk around and talk.. we bitched.. missed that.. cher, der and mer went to cycle.. i rather kayak dude.. went to bugis... with my cousin nad.. we rounded the whole of bugis village.. just to find our damn 3/4.. and i ended up hating my butt.. cause my bottom is a L size.. fuck la.. but.. seeing the varities of bags there.. i wished i was a duaghter of a tycoon... i want them all!!.. today.. we went for a talk on ageing population.. our teachers predicted that the topic will appear for our O's.. so i was like.. whatever what the heck so just went.. after that us all went to have our lunch at KFC.. we saw Berlinda.. the *SuperBand* host.. she is so pretty.. damn gorgeous..she is so soft spoken..no im not gay.. dan wanted to take pixs with her.. and so does the rest.. cass, hamd,cher and me...but since all was too shy to ask.. i was like.. ok. fine.. i'll ask.. so i went up to her.. surprisingly not nervous.. so we got to do so bcause of me.. hahaha..that der was too camera shy.. gonna get the pixs later from dan.. waiting to go get myself an mp3 with daddy.. and now im hungry.. damn.. i can really eat loads.. |
