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Sunday, May 28, 2006 @ 8:42 PM
okay.. not in my best mood now.. just came back from 2 overnight stay from unc's house in jurong.. and i get stupid attitude from mom.. so i showed mine back.. i dont care if you think im not a filial daught. im sick of this...so i packed my stuffs.. to leave for my another unc house.. this time in tamp.. easier for me to go for my study camp.. leave this 'home' tomorrow before my class feild trip... im getting drowsy already since i gulp i don't kow how many ml of cough syrup.. just to make me sleep instantly.. i doubt its less than 15 ml.. wanna end this night fast and so that i can catch up wth my sleep.. tomorrow will be my first O'lvl paper...its gonna be Malay language. so wish me luck.. ciao.. Friday, May 26, 2006 @ 11:54 PM
e sleepy sleepy me.. oh no... mother tongue O'lvl is 2 days away... i really dread for it to come.. but i have to go thru' it... wish me luck.. hope i can do well to get a b4 for it... i hate to see my friends sufferin with their own problems.. i can't stand it.. i wanna be there for them.. i wanna be there for him.. i hate seeing him this depress.. its like a dementor has just sucked his soul and levae never to be happy anymore.. hmmm... Monday.. my Malay O level paper.. and then... off we go to the science centre as the whole class... then tuesday til friday... from 8 til 5.. in school for the study camp.. more like torture camp to me! i wanna go to pulau ubin... go cycling.. plan with alan.. so.. calling those interested.. the last time i went was with the j dudes.. j'son and j.t.. got myself in a mess.. in mud i mean.. from knee down.. well.. almost.. still sleepy........... ciao losers.. catch up with me later ok?? Thursday, May 25, 2006 @ 9:04 PM
haiz...... troubled troubled.. having doubts in myself..can i do this??.. do i really have to lie to myself that i can do it for the sake of having been dreaming it for years?.. crying a river.. i dont wanna disappoint ppl like alan... what am i to do now lets make this year a memorable year shall we... i love the friendship i have with my class.. like jason... alan.. farhanah..fizza... i love us all... watching american idol.. oh god..clay aiken.. super hot.. one damn gorgeous white boy.. put on some weight.. did things with his hair... America and whoever you are.. thats a hot one right there... my brother has me on on the boiling point... im so sick of him... someone kill him please?... please please please please please please please please please please........ instead of shooting me... shoot him... please and thank you.. Monday, May 22, 2006 @ 7:33 PM
..you know.. first it was Paul Bettany..after that it was V.. from V for Venetta...next its the gorgeous JONATHAN RHYS MEYERS.. and now its Simon Cowell.. i think i have a thing for english guys.. i think its the accent.. oo.. i do fancy english people.. me and mom ran away from the things we dread today.. i dreaded school so i skipped it.. and mom dreaded work cause they wont give her time to breathe.. seriously.. when we go on holidays.. i think she still at works.. always on the phone with her colleagues.. why cant they solve their own stinking problem.. why must mom spoon feed them all the time.. go get your own mom buster!!.. leave my mom be.. hey guys.. heard about the hard gay?.. oh God.. it may be lame.. but this guy.. no one can resist saying yes to him.. haha.. saying no would be like.. "say say say".. hahaha.. him wearing the hot pant.. was so hot.. i wish i had the legs to wear the hot pants.. anyways.. i wish he would come to Singapore and do some entertaining here.. reasons why i'm running away from school... is nothing personal really.. i just dont want to face the same crap again and again and again... my teachers are really a pain in the butt.. they keep saying things again and again.. o level is this and o level is that.. God.. enough already.. its starting to be depressing.. like i dont know like that.. they are just worried they get nag by the principal of something.. like i dont care for my happiness and future i do.. but if you guys keep doing this all the time.. i might just leave the school and just come back to do Prelims and the big thing.. what is the legal age to drive here?.. please someone fill me in.. if the government have changed it to 21.. damn them man.. *oops*.. well thats the only thing i disagree on.. zipping my mouth.. watched the singapore idol last night.. gosh.. those stupid stupid fools...dont they ask people to judge them first before getting JUDGED???... and seriously.. who are they kidding.. they cant sing.. and i cant sing i know.. hello reality check please.. like tht brokeback cow boy or that Jay Chou wannabe.. is so not making it anywhere.. maybe to those who can sing.. but not to the Singapore Idol standard... haiz.. i think.. being alocal artist here.. is kinda difficult to make it big.. so far.. i know that Stefanie Sun and JJ got themselves real big.. Taufik Batisah... i wont doubt his humble attitude and his singing talent.. but its difficult to make it here in singapore.. besides.. i think his fire died already.. but if you're saying acting?.. then yes.. there is hope.. for those.. i'm done blabbering now.. i wanna take my medicine and go to sleep!.. lata losers.. Sunday, May 21, 2006 @ 10:51 PM
im losing my cool.. gosh.. dear God... what is gonna be come of me?.. im going nuts with all this.. damn it... i hate this... maybe it was a bad idea to continue my secondary sch.. to me mid year is nothing.. absolutely nothing... and i dont wanna go to school having teachers to do the same thing again and again.. especially Mr Neo.. seeing his sick face.. gosh.. im sick of his attitude... i dont want teachers lecturing us the same thing again and again.. im just so sick of it.. it just makes me wanna walk out that door and not come back til Prelims and O levels.. smack me on the head puhleese!!!!!!!!!! @ 2:48 AM
its 0246 now.. and i just got back from watching Mission Impossible 3... comparing it btween' V for Vendetta' and 'The Da Vinci Code'.. it sucks... this mission was.. pretty okay.. bad guy is fearless..girlfriend got caught... good guy almost dies.. good guy wins..so.. its same o same o.. but if i were to compare it with its previous sequel.. of course this is better.. the gadget were good.. seems amazing to me.... erm... the girls were hot.. not like im gay or anything.. guys were super super hot.. especially JONATHAN RHYS MEYERS.. aint he gorgeous?...his accent..God.. i love english men.. back to movie... i thought Keri Russel will be like be seen thru out the whole movie.. but how unfortunate her scenes lasted like only 15 minutes?.. that tom cruise can sure run.. i wonder how he does it... seeing keri russel and maggie q kick ass makes me wannna kick some.. i need to get myself tops and a pair of bottoms... goin shopping this wed and i hope he's available to do so with me... toodles... Saturday, May 20, 2006 @ 12:00 AM
i just watched the movie 'V for Vendetta'.. my understanding are quite..well actually very little.. all i know of the story is.. plot taken in the future where London is run by a chancellor who is almost like that Hitler but less sane and got murdered in the end... this guy whom calls himself V.. was a victim of the chansellor so callrd 'National Security' project.. and which nearly 100,000 ppl died and in which he miraculously survived.. got his whole body badly burnt.. explains alot about his outfit and mask.. his vengence to the man who made this all happen... has something that gots to do with Guy Fawkes.. wanted a better counrty..yada yada yada...but hey.. thru out the whole movie.. i was wishing that V wouldnt die and he and Evey could run away to a country and have a great relationship... gosh.. he seems to be the most perfect gentleman.. i almost fall in love with him.. what the heck.. I even fall in love with Paul Bettany's character in The Da Vinci Code.. from the start i pitied him.. for being used and betrayed.. he killed cause he thought it was all in the name of God.. and the way he put himself in pain just like his jesus did.. apart from that.. he look so cute.. the character he's playing.. like a small child really.. all he did was listen.. look how devoted he was to the Bishop.. look at his eyes.. seriously.. i think im desperate... gosh.. someone smack me on the head.. Friday, May 19, 2006 @ 1:21 PM
im not perfect..like everybody else.. i made mistakes in life which i deeply regret.. if there was a chance to turn back time...i would.. but im just glad that i can see myself very well now..many thanks for the help my friends gave me.. i had a week or so to think about the events that had happened recently... im glad it did happen.. although i've gone thru a bitter year so far.. im glad it did happen.. this events.. made my eyes opens to my ugly side.. who doesn't have tell me!.. i see as lessons to be learnt.. i can see crystal clear how i got others hurt.. well.. im sorry really.. but the things is.. thats in the past.. i don't wish to dwell on them anymore.. Im just happy that i'm changing.. day by day.. 'that thing'..i shall refer it as him.. so.. to him.. you know you are.. you got the message.. and hope you understand what im trying to reach out.. both of us made mistakes.. to one another.. both of us have our own stories to tell.. i used to stand up for mine.. and to agree that i was the victim thru out everything.. but i guess both are victimized by one another's actions and words.. so.. there you go.. i agree that i was in the wrong partly.. it takes 2 hands to clap.. its all up to you.. okay.. thats all done.. *pheww.. yesterday night.. was great.. i got to watch "The Da Vinci Code" with my great friend J'son.. been a while since both of us went out.. the movie was great.. was not an exact copy of the book.. meaning.. there was a few differences btween the movie and the book.. but overall.. it still brought suspense to me eventhough i read the book.. but please people.. its only a..movie... just like book.. its only fiction.. anyways.. what matter is what we believe.. going out with him..was fun.. we talk.. everytime im with him.. we'll talk.. i like to talk.. and so does him.. we got to understand one another alot.... i got to understand this whole dilemma better.. i really appreciate his time last night.. i hope the grey sky will soon be away from our heads.. i have a question.. is it good to priorities a friendship with another??... Thursday, May 18, 2006 @ 10:37 PM
You know.. im happy today... as in.. im not complaining about anything recently.. nothing about friends..nothing about my special face God gave me.. my mom.. my lazy attitude... eventually i pull my socks.. Oh my god... the syrum i took for my cough..is damn strong.. i could hardly get my eyes to open..i share what is in my heart tomorrow then... Wednesday, May 17, 2006 @ 3:36 PM
okays.. i can see my mid year papers..with a loads of red ink..*still thinking im a fortune teller*.. i see dad nagging.. that's nothing to predict about cause.. he and mom.. does it pretty much everyday..hahaz... someone leaked out things which he wasnt suppose to say.. thats not very nice.. but than.. tooo bad its been done.. what was i suppose to do? get paranoid?.. besides it was a misunderstanding.. too bad im too lazy to fix it up.. some ppl just dont learn their lesson or take advice well.. good luck on that Ran'd.. talk to you when i feel like it.. i got hooked with Mr Dan Brown's best selling book.. The Da Vinci Code.. borrowed it from my unc.. he said i wouldnt understand it.. cause what this book is mostly talking about is Christ and i dont have a good strong base of my own religion also.. which i still wonder if that got to do with anything.. I was like.. okay.. let this be a challenge.. and it was..all the talks about the the belief of Christ which i know little..Leonardo Da Vinci.. which I hardly knew except that he was the renaissance painter, mathematician, inventor, philosopher and genious who painted Mona Lisa and claimed to be a homosexual dude from Anchiano, Italy.. so much about hardly knewing him.. there was so much talking of paintings.. Virgin of The Rock... the Last Supper.. Mona Lisa.. but actually.. everything was on the Holy Grail.. which i thought was a chalice..a chalice is a cup my dear friends... but on the contrary..its a woman..which stirs up a contraversy... just go and read the book.. took me 5 days to complete it...looking for the Angels And Demons...and now im totally anxious for the movie premiering tomorrow..so cantwait...au revoir mes amis.. Sunday, May 14, 2006 @ 1:56 PM
well look who here's to tag me at my board.. hmm.. i do seem have ppl who have problems with me.. if im happy with myself.. must i change?... well.. excuse me who claim being 'that thing'.. offended have i?.. well a million apologies alright.. and stop defending for yourself too.. if we truly hate each other's gut.. maybe its best silent.. how silly of me that you would not know abt my blog.. of course.. knowing you too well.. you soon get your ways of knowing it.. so glad you could drop by.. isnt this my blog.. well i do have the right to say what i wanna.. if this is what my heart feels.. then so it be... to other readers.. friends or family.. whatever entries that you do read.. please dont claim its subjected to you.. please and thank you... Friday, May 12, 2006 @ 7:45 PM
now im sick.. my nose will be looking like Santa's Rudolph..... all red.. but mine is all wet and runny.. eyes.. look like shit... throat.. damn dry and itchy... mind.. surprisingly..not buzy thinking... i care less about the world this few days... i give shit to those who gives it to me.. dont go saying about my attitude.. dont call me selfish me all the time.. maybe its you guys should turn the mirror back at yourself... if i keep giving you all the time..well im sorry.. i have nothing to give now.. except the middle finger.. so.. either you back off.. or put a sock in it... now... wheres my big tub of Bens & Jerry? dont go messing with me now.. i aint afraid anymore @ 12:01 AM
Yawnz...... my eyes are wet.. my stomach is bloated..eew...my throat hurts..my mind... got alot of things.. but im keeping it all calm.. Hm....went Metro Sale... called up Randolph.. he agreed to accompany me... and in the end.. cherlyn..merilyn..all went... why am i not surprised?..... well...generally.. i like to shop alone... but sometimes i do like to be accompanied.. so.. even if i was to call ppl out.. i end up shopping alone even when some said to accompany me.. enough... best learn to be independent... No.. im not going China.... its not daddy said no.. bcause i chose too.. i dont feel good having him to pay 700+ just for my holiday.. wouldnt that seems selfish of me.. anyways... im glad i wont be going... if i were to see that 'thing'.. i wont be happy thru out the whole trip.. leaving me in pain! Tuesday, May 09, 2006 @ 12:38 PM
My momma ok.. i dont get myself lately.. what with me and all being in love with mom.. i dont think i need to suck up to her for something do i? not really... anyways.. im here in the library... dead bored.. and in need to see that Mr wong!!!.... where is he gosh.. im getting frustrated... Im so in love with Quakers... its so.. low fat..hahaz.. still got fats.. but who cares..... i spend an entire afternoon in the library yesterday talking about a lot of stuffs.. was only me and kak seri... we talk.. get obsessed with Yahoo Auction and YouTube!.. spent hours slacking.. which is a bad no no for me. cause the next day is exam.. but it ws fun.. saw a Mp4 that i like.. did i not mention this yesterday? *blur* ...anyways.. we talked about friendships.. one thing that im never good at having.. cause either people have problems with me.. or i just have problems with them.. but yet i never like the idea of being lonely.. thats why i have many friends.. but i dont really enjoy sticking to one particular group only... cause i know that all of us.. wont last... in life.. no one will last.. gosh.. From what Kak seri told me yesterday.. which i agree.. All of us will have friends.. to laugh with..to share with.. but in the end.. from that million of friends that you have..and for all you know..only one of them..out of a million or billions.. that only one person will stick with you forever.. you will know it.. sometimes.. i dont think so I've found her/him yet... That person is not who you follow.. that person is who sticks with you thick and thin... and who will comes and find you.. unlike me.. i go looking for everybody.. so far..none has come for me.. so maybe i just you know.. low key.. stop approaching people.. and just let them approach to me... Im outta here.. need to find that Mr Wong.... ciao Monday, May 08, 2006 @ 7:49 PM
I realise why me and mom sometimes dont get along.. cause both of us are almost the same.. if you guys were to compare us with our attitude and temper.. gosh.. now i get it.. both of us are such loggerheads sometimes.. but i love her so....hmm... Exams has come for me...... same-o same-o for me.. i think im getting tired of school i dont know why.. sick and tired of waking up early morning..am i getting old for this seondary school?..hahaha... First I wanna go China.. then i dont want cause the moneytary problems..then.. ok.. so fine.. dad would get me an ipod video or nano.. so i was like thrilled.. hey.. the cost of the China almost cost twice the ipod thinghy orh.. so.. ...when i approach Mr Wong..the teacher of the humanities field trip..he was like WHY??..i said due to moneytary.. he was like.. oh no.. he ask me a few other question..then he finally said.. you really wanna go.. i said hell yeah.. so he was like.. if the school pay for the whole trip.. would i still be able to fork up some buckaroos.. i said that wouldnt be such a problem.. then he was like.. i see what i can do about it.. oh gosh.. now.. i think im addicted to Yahoo! Auction.. I'm like obsessed with it.. prices are like so cheap.. damn man.. I want a MP4 and in need of a bag.. tts all i need now.. seriously... i want a nike bag.. uuuweek!!... puhleese.... Monday, May 01, 2006 @ 6:52 PM
Okay.. if my problem is not solved by end of this week.. i wanna take back what i said... I used to think..and believed that boys are such easier kind of people to be friends with.. but i guess im wrong.. wrong big time dude... Hmmm.. i think none of the genders are good being friends.. as in....well... i guess no one is perfect.. okay.. true.. so... if i were to have friends who are boys... what do i have to be cautious about?.. their egotism... their alpha attitude.. Insensitivity..hmm..what else?..oh yeah.. petty.. i hate these things.. Girls.. haiz.. we are born bitchy i think.... girls.. we have to look out for jealousy.. backstabbing bitches... gossiping behind our backs.. us girls are so emotional.. which we all are...and we all tend to hate about a person.... So... whats the moral.. well.. theres no moral really.. im just saying... |
